Don't die a virgin

Don't die a virgin step one and two

I tie the final knot on the noose and try to find the best spot to hang it. I'm quite tall, so finding a spot far above my head is hard. I sigh and jump out my window on to the roof. I would simply jump off the roof, but I know that the fall will only cause me pain. And believe it or not, I'm not a big fan of pain. I look at the big pine tree next to the house and figure that it will have to do. I jump, grab on to one the branches and start climbing.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to kill myself because I'm 'depressed' or 'hate life' or something like that, I'm just bored. And who knows, heaven or Hell or where ever might be fun. You don't know until you try right? But okay, I promised myself that I wouldn't be in denial like other chicks so I'll tell you the truth. I got this idea that death might be more fun than life after my boyfriend broke up with me. I never really had much fun with life though. It was always the same thing over and over again. I got bored with all the awards given to me and all the boys throwing themselves at me, so when the the only thing that fascinates me left, I was bored again. Who knows I might be able to come back as a spirit or something and scare the shit out of that perverted bastard.

I tie the noose on a Branch above my head and loop it around my head. I sit on the branch and take a final look at this boring world. I see some teenagers getting high at the park crossed the street. I roll my eyes. Then it hits me. I wonder how it feels to get high. I start to think of all the things I havn't done. I'm still a god damned virgin! Instinctively I throw the noose off my head and walk back inside.

I pace back and forth thinking this through. The reason I haven't lived life to its fullest is because I was planning on growing old up until just a few days ago. I can't believe I'm having second thoughts about this! I should just go kill myself before I can reconsider. But that small little voice in my head says it wants to have fun before exploring the unknown. Fine, I compromise with that little voice and say one week from tomorrow, eer today I think as I look at the time. Its twelve thrifty, but I stay up plotting. I can sleep when I'm dead, but if I have a week to live, then I'm going to live it to the fullest.

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Step one I say to myself as I enter school, find a companion. I grab my best friend by the braids and pull her into the bathroom.

"Luc?Lucy? What are you doing?" she shrieks as we enter the bathroom.

I look her strait in the face and say "We are leaving."

"Where?" She asks confused. That's why I love Zoe, she dosn't question my motives.

"To Florida." I say simply.

"When?" she asks.

"Now" I command as I prop open the window.

She looks at me dumbfounded. "So we'er going to drive from Minnesota to Florida by our selves?"

"You have your license right? I can just take over in the night when there's nobody around." I suggest

"I don't have a car."

"I do" I smile at he shocked face.

She shrugged and sighs, "Well, its a long drive, we better start as soon as possible."

"That's my girl!"I say as I pull myself up and out the window.

Its about a six foot drop, so I can only wait for Zoe to come out the window. Its a few moments before she climbs out the window, and when she does her back pack is budging.

"What did you put in there?" I ask.

"Food. Its not a road trip with out chocolate." She says with a smile.