My instinct , my mind

Who am I?

Who am I? I am Nate Middleton. I am broken. Not physically but my spirit is gone. I thought that I would not hate it no matter what. Basketball. I thought I will play it all time and will win every time. After all , winning is everything. Those who are strong can remain on court.

It was a bright morning when my spirit broke. I was practicing myself on court as I came early than others. As I one more time tried to dunk , Somebody appear and smack ball away from my hand. I looked to see Lydia Mckey , she is a WNBA player who introduced me to Basketball. She give me small smile and said ,"Your speed , power ,stamina and as your vertical jump have increased a lot , didn't they?Nate?". She said as she pickup the Basketball that she smacked away from my hand.

I was confused and just give a nod as an answer. She smiled and said ,"You are strong and I am sure you can crush almost anyone." I smirked I was glad she was praising me but her next words make my spine experience a chill. She coldly said to me ,"But with your Basketball I don't think you will be able to have fun ,So please...."She stopped as she throw the Ball in Hoop and said ,"Quit the basketball , it is not meant for you"

I was angry. She may have encouraged me to start playing ,but still she doesn't have right to talk to me like that. I challenge her for a one-on-one. She sighed and nodded. I don't know what happen but I was crushed badly. Even though I had advantage in power and speed I wasn't able to stop her. I lose to her with score 10-0.

I locked myself in room for 2 weeks since it was summer vacation. As I was surfing web I look at a video of a animation called Kuroko no Basket. When I read about whole story I get why Lydia said those things to me.

I was playing basketball alone , I just cared for results and nothing else. Teamwork? I don't know if I did something like that anytime. I was never a team player. I just give a hollow laugh and changed and run out of my house. My mom said something but I didn't hear what she said.

I run until I reached court and found Lydia there. She open her mouth and I know she was going to say ,"Don't come here". I give her a quick bow and ask her to play against me again. She accepted in a moment. As we start playing I notice my movements were far better than before when I stopped playing. I passed her and dunk the ball. At that moment I notice , win is useless if you are not having Fun. If you can have fun , then results are not important anyomore.