Undertale texting shit

Hey guys........(A/N)

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So.... been awhile huh?

Sorry it's just life's been..... how do I put this......

An absolute fucking mess......

Before you say anything or skip this thing just..... hold on a sec, please just let me explain.

First thing's first last couple of months have been one of the worst times of my life. Starting all the way at the beginning of summer.

So I went on fantastical adventure in the middle of nowhere where with no internet, no phone, no coffee, and no shower, for ten days. I actually had a lot of fun.... Until I came back.

I was casually doing dishes and other chores. Until suddenly  my mom shouted: 

"OH MY GOD HE GOT IN, HE GOT IN!"

"What?" I asked.

"Jeff (my stepdad) got in to the college! We're moving to new Hampshire!" She said happily.

"W-wow, thats.... th-that's cool mom...." 

My whole life just stopped.  My stomach started to churn. Voices in my head started to scream at me. Tears started to well in my eyes. Over and over memories of my friends and my time in Oregon started to flood back. All the things I did wrong  every relationship I had. All of my fears and nightmares suddenly came to life, disappointing my friends, my family, and worst of all my girlfriend.

I was leaving what I built up into a life I was comfortable with. A place that I knew and understood. 

Now I'm going into a whole new state that I never been to. A new place that I'll probably get judged at. A place that's so far away that I can't be conforted by my friends or my girlfriend...

A place that I'll always be alone at.

And if you're thinking that my parents are gonna help well you're wrong they don't care about me or my life they just care about their own. My mom said she understood how I felt about the situation. Well guess what?

She has no idea.....

Later on I began to realize that the world doesn't give a shut wether you're  dead or if you're alive. Then I started to think. Think about how wonderful it was when you were a kid everything and everyone was happy. How much you thought that everybody cared that everybody just knew that you were gonna make a change. And then I thought how much the world kept lying to itself. Saying that everything's fine and perfect..... when it's not..... It's not even close.....

Soon after my bgff (best gay friend forever) told me she was going to a different school. And personally I don't blame her. I mean our school absolutely sucks ass ....

But I still cried....

But now every body's just fighting each other.... and some how losing all at the same time.

It's..... funny?

Not to mention that my mom isn't any help, my stepdad just generally doesn't care.

And the worst part is... the realization that I need my friends to be happy. Like my friends are a drug to me . They are my escape. They're keeping me alive and helping me when I need it most. When I leave my house to walk to school each morning I'm happy and excited to see them because I know that no matter what happens or if we sometimes break apart, we all ways manage to pull ourselves back together. And then I realized that when I move... They won't be there to comfort me or if there in need of help in a dire situation.... I won't be there...

I'm afraid that in New Hampshire I'll forget everything...... all of the happy times and memories that I cherish deeply....

That I'll replace my friends with new ones or worse not have any friends at all.....

Well.... this took me a month to write....

Hopefully I'll get my ass back to working and write a new chappy in this mess of a book....

God's speed for Texas and love you all

                                                                                 -Momo