Tucked away

Psycho crush

Early in the morning the nurse comes in with my medicine and breakfast.

 "Did you get a good sleep?" She asks with a cheery smile. I force a smile and respond with a lie. "Yes I did. It was very good, thank you." The nurse smiles, nods and then leaves. 

Good thing she's stupid otherwise she'd see right past my forced smile. I am actually so tired right now. Even if Kevin didn't come in my room last night I still would have been tired. I hardly get a decent sleep ever. I was given pills to but they where giving me extreme headaches.

I sit down at the side of my bed and recall everything from last night. 

I've never been held like that before. I've never been touched like that before. Apart of me knew that liking it was wrong, but apart of me liked it anyways. Should I ignore him today and act like nothing happened or should I just stay in my room? Why should I talk to him anyways he killed people.

 "Are you ready for your shower?" The nurse breaks my thoughts with her question. "Oh... Uh, ya of course." I say dumbfounded. The nurse smiles and takes me to the showers. "I will be supervising the showers today. Okay?" I nod and slip into the shower. 

The warm water sprays onto my head and down my body. I let the comfort put me in a daze and I let my thoughts travel. I think about all the possibilities today. What will Kevin be like when he sees me? Will he be nervous? Will he pretend like nothing happened last night? I know he was only back hugging me but that's a lot in my head. That was basically making love in my head.

 'Ya it made me jealous.' Great the last person I wanted to hear today. Claud.

 'That hurts my feelings Jasmine.' Claud says clearly offended.

 So what! Just get out my head already!

Wait your only in my head. I created you! So your not real! 

"Are you finished yet Jasmine?" Oh shit the nurse. How long have I been in here? 

"Y-yes, i'm getting out now." I say while turning off the taps. I wrap my towel around my body and quickly get out the shower. "I can go back to my room by myself thank you." I quickly race to my room and to my surprise I find Kevin siting on my bed.

 "I need to get dressed may you please leave?" I ask trying to hide my rapid breath. "Just change. I'll help." He walks towards me and pulls down my towel leaving my body totally exposed to him. 

What should I do? Should I scream?

 'Slap him!' Should I?

 'Beat him!' Should I?

 'KILL HIM!' Should I? 

I feel his hands moving up and down my naked body body as he puts my clothes on. Tempted my hands move towards his neck. He stops and stands in front of me still as a rock. "Who is controlling who?" He says that one simple sentence and I snap out of it.

 "Oh no! I-i'm so sorry!" I grab hold of his shirt and bow. He could kill me because of that. "It wasn't you so it's okay." He says while buttoning up my shirt. 

But how did he know it was Claud?

 'He's a usurper! No he's a magus! A mage! Quickly kill him!' Shut up you cretin!

 "Hey. Look at me and calm down." I notice my breath is heavy and quick. Kevin is rubbing my arms as if to calm me down. "I'm sorry. Claud won't leave me alone." I say with my head down like a dog. 

"Claud? That's his name?"Kevin asks while tilting his head a little.

 I nod and he continues to speak. "Well, you tell Claud he doesn't have control. It's your mind. You control him."