Blazing Dawn - Sasuke X Reader (Modern AU + Lemon)

The Night Before

"Please, forgive me," his arms tightened around my waist, he had me sitting on his lap. His head hung low, his forehead on my collarbone. We were all over the floor along with the remaining of what was once his phone. I didn't say anything for more than an hour, and he's still apologizing like a broken record. The man before me now didn't look like the high and mighty Uchiha Sasuke at all.

What was it again? I almost forgot what caused this whole drama. My face swollen from crying, my nose stuck, I gotta breath from my mouth, my mind was blank from bursting out the rage. I was simply in a mess.
Oh yes, I remembered.
He left me.
He lied to me.

He let me wait for him in the middle of a rainy night outside a closed library.
2 p.m. until 7 p.m. I was waiting.
He said it was work.
He said it's not till dark so I waited.
And then when the dark fell, he told me to go home by myself.

"You were literally telling me to walk down the street in the rain, it's dark and you knew I didn't bring umbrella, do you realize this?" was what I answered him when he called me asking me where was I. At the end he picked me up, horrid all over his face.
"I feel so bad, I thought you went home," he said.
"I'm not waiting for you, I'm waiting for the rain to stop," I spoke without looking at him.
"I'm sorry, I didn't know it was till dusk, let's go home," I was expecting he would grab my hand but he didn't. It made me feel so unwanted, I just felt like a burden, that being with me was something he did but he didn't really want to. The thought was eating me inside my mind.

It was when he's in the shower the same night, a notification tone ringing from his phone. The screen flicker and I just happened to see it on the lockscreen. But what it said got my attention.

"Haruno Sakura : [attached files] Photos from today 💗💗 "

I felt a fire started to burn in my chest. I opened it immediately to find the answers of my unspoked questions.
It was a groupie, there're Sakura, Naruto, Neji, Kiba, Lee, Shikamaru, Sai, and of course Sasuke. Sakura was at the center with Sasuke and Naruto on each of her side. They're in a kind of fancy restaurant with seafoods and sake filling up the table. Sakura's arms was circling around Sasuke's left arm, clinging on him. Tears were already gathering on my eyes when I grabbed my phone and opened Naruto's private chatroom.

"You : Naruto, what were you doing today?"
Luckily  he was replying fast.
"Uzumaki Naruto : hey [name], I was just attending classes like usual, why?"
"You : after that?"
"Uzumaki Naruto : oh! I remeber! Sakura asked us to help with her project after class, and after that she treated us dinner!! Woooh the crab and sake is so goood!!"
"You : ok, thank you Naruto."
"Uzumaki Naruto : eh, why did you asked again? Sasuke was there too. You didn't know?"
My sobbing was already getting loud and I couldn't look at the screen clearly anymore. After a minute of me not replying, Naruto texted me again.
"Uzumaki Naruto : EEEHHHHH DID I SAID SOMETHING WRONG??????"

I turned off my phone, and at the exact time Sasuke came out from the shower.
"[Name].." before he could talk any further I cut him off.
"Why were you dating me again?"
"[Name] what.."
"You're popular, good looking, first in class, sports, anything, I'm not even proportional, I'm short and dull, I'm not good at dressing up, don't like wearing make up, I'm not good with socializing, not beautiful and cheerful like Sakura.." Sasuke's eyes went wide from the name I mentioned, he looked at my arm which was still holding his phone.
"[Name], what did you.."
"Were you just pitying me? It was me who said 'I love you' first.."
"No. I lo.."
"I love you, I don't want to chain you down in a relationship you don't want, I don't want you to do what you don't wanna do, let's break.."
"Listen to me!! I love you. You said it first cause I asked you, remember? I was being a coward ass, uncertain and wondering about you. Girls has their eyes on me but you were not! You of all people!! That's why I made sure first about your feeling! I've loved you from I don't remember when, you always with me through my ups and downs! I am NOT breaking up with you!" He was half screaming on my face, his grip on my shoulder was almost crushing me.
"Then why did you lie to me?" My voice came out in a barely audible sound. He jolted up with a worried face.
"I.. I didn't.." he stuttered.
"THEN WHAT IS THIS ???" I cried my lungs out and threw his phone, it went past him and clashed with the wall with a loud crack. Without looking at his phone he already knew what was I talking about.

"You said it was work, I was waiting," my cry became frantic and he pulled me to his embrace but I pushed him and he fell on the floor with a loud thud. He kept on pulling me and I pushed him each and every time. We were simply struggling on the floor until he put a bit more strength and he overpewered me. I ended up locked up on his lap.

"It was. She paid us. I was literally working on the project with the boys.. I.. I'm sorry I made you wait so long, I didn't realize it was raining outside, I was too absorbed with my part then it's dark already, I'm so.."
"You were drinking sake when I was waiting in the dark freezing" I didn't even know if we were arguing anymore, I just let out whatever was there in my mind.

"I'm sorry, it's my fault, I'm sorry.." I felt his tears on my shirt and there he started to play the broken record, I was silent the whole time until my legs went numb.

A/n : no one read my story *sob sob* but I'll finish this! Because I enjoy writing this and.. *whisper* ~this is based on true story~ lols, but I'm still confused whether to write mature scene or not, ugh I hope I have readers 😭😭😭