MY STORY

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Eline.

One thing about me. I will never cry in front of anyone instead I will cry inside and act like a brave one because I don't want someone to noticed my weakness, I don't want to be called weak and most of all I don't want them to see my weak spot.

They all see me as strong and cold women but truth is I am not. I am sensitive and easily get hurt by simple things and that's what I hate about myself. People don't know if I am sad or angry because I am not a showy person. They all think that it's alright for me but it is not.

"Kanina pa tayo dito but I didn't heard even a single word from you." Napasulyap ako kay Shawn nang magsalita na naman siya ulit. Uh, I forgot that I am with him.

He brought me in this beautiful place, full of dragonflies and bermuda grasses. It is a quite flat and nice place but I can't appreciate its beauty right now and I'm aware that he saw me earlier. Duh, I am not fool and I can sense his clemencies and I hate it, I don't want to be pity, it's just made me feel like I am so low and it made me look like one of those orphans there that need someone to nurture for them.

I am not in the mood to talk that's why I did not replied him.

"That's what I hate about you Eli," I faced him because of what he said. "You keep on hurting yourself outside and inside."

Am I? I don't know what is he talking about. I am not crazy to hurt my own self and what made him think that I keep on hurting myself?

I exhaled and rolled my eyes at him.

"I don't get you." He looked at me and he gave me a smile. His smile is sometimes bonny, enticing and also annoying, and his smile right now is kinda annoying.

"You know what? You're always hiding your emotions inside and outside, you want to be calm even though you are angry and you keep on doing that until now and it even became worse. Noon pa man ay naisip ko na ang uniqueness mo, I thought it's good but I revoked it. It is not good to hide your emotions because it can leads us to being a psycopath, do you get it, Eli?" Tumitig ako sa mata niya, as if I want him to read my eyes.

"You don't know. You don't know how much I suffered because of my emotions. Pagod na ako." Sabi ko at tumingin ulit sa kawalan, he remain silent as if he's trying to absorb what I said.

"You became worse and became more stranger. Alam mo bang ang saya ko nang makita kita kanina?" He chuckles, "Kaya kahit hindi ako ang pinara mo ay agad akong huminto and I am so grateful that you didn't noticed that you entered my car instead of that taxi earlier. Crazy right?" So all this time ay taxi talaga ang pinara ko but unfortunately I entered a car instead of a taxi.

"Kailan ka ba magpaparamdam sa amin? It's been 6 years, Eli. They missed you." Napatawa ako sa narinig ko. Really? As if I'm a fool. After what they did to me they thought I will let myself be fooled again?

"I am not stupid, Shawn. I will not gonna show up again, never." I said as I shook my head remembering the days when they made me look like a fool. Maybe they misses how they always pummel me.

"I know you will say this but lola Marie wants to see you." As I heard my Lola's name I look at him with presentiments.

"Why? What happened to Lola?" I  asked with uneasiness. My Lola is my closest family, she's the one who made me feel what love is and she showed me how a good grandmother she is, and I cannot just stay chill whenever I felt something not good about her. I missed her so much to the point that I always dreamt about her.

"She's sick and she wants to say something to you. She wants you to go home." I look down because of the thought of going home. I promised myself that I will never going home but should I break my promise? I should. It's my lola's request and I want to see her too. I want to hug her and show to her how much I want her to be with me.