Boy Problems (((Male rivals X Female!Reader))) «COMPLETE»

My Reason

Tears slowly stopped running down your face. Osorõ made you lay down and you needed a moment to breath. You still felt like you needed leave this world permanently. But you couldn't because of the baby inside of you. Hanako sat next to you not saying a word. Hanako tried talking to you but you said nothing. You wanted to die. The voices were still there.
You don't deserve to live. Osorõ doesn't deserve you.
You matter what you try, the ghosts stayed there. The never left. You wanted to leave so badly but you couldn't ruin the trip for everyone else. So you put on a mask and acted normal. Inside you felt awful, depression, and broken. You thought maybe when the baby is born, you can finally disappear. Or...you can get rid of the baby. Hanako would ask you if you wanted to talk anything. You wish so hard that you could explain to him how you felt. You learned to it inside and not let anyone see. You got up and went for a walk. You walked to boardwalk and looked into the Ocean. There was a girl with braids standing close to the edge. She held a note in her hand then slowly took off her shoes. (In Japan, its tradition to take off your shoes before you commit suicide.)
Your eyes widened and as she sighed. "Hey! Don't it please!" You yelled at the girl. The girl looked at you and stepped away. "What's wrong? Why do you want to do this?" You asked. "I really thought he might be the one but then we told me he was done. And---!" You stomped your foot against the wet wood of the boardwalk. "For god's sake please!! You are serious!? I just can't believe that you got here before me!! That for some stupid reason, you got here before me!! Are you upset because you can't have what you wanted!?! you're lucky that you never gotten robbed of anything!!!" You snapped with tears in your eyes. She sighed. "I'm feeling better. Thank you for listening." The girl with braided hair walked away. The next day, there was a very short girl. You screamed again and she told you her woes. You were pissed and told her off. She walked away. You wish you had someone to talk to you about this but they would understand. The last day of you being there, you saw girl wearing a yellow jacket. Before you said anything, she said..."I just wanna stop the scars that grow everytime that I go home, that's why I came up here instead." She said. You froze up as she quietly said goodbye world. You grab her and whispered. "Hey don't do it please!" You whispered. She looked at you and sighed slightly annoyed. "I guess today. It's not my day." She said walking away. You were done with this cycle, you wanted to be done this world. You made a plan, you would stay here in Bora Bora while eveyone else goes. While everyone gets on you make a escape and stay here. But wanted Osorõ to stay with you. It was his child, you wanted to be with him. But...you weren't good enough. You told him the pan and agreed. You were glad he wanted to stay as well. You kept thinking and thinking. Should I just commit suicide after the baby is born? Or stay with him?
Those questions were stuck with you for the longest time. You wanted to stop this and live a normal life.
No more tears. No more cutting. No more thoughts. No more torture. You talked to Osorõ. He said if you wanted to talk he was always going to be there. You felt comfortable but scared. Your parents would disown you and never let you in their family again. You couldn't help yourself that wanted to be with him and wanted a child. You loved him..you couldn't give just yet.

(So, two questions.
1. Should the reader commit suicide?
This may be a phase since I'm super depressed right now. But IDK. And it will help the story line with the second
2. A second book?
I freaking love this book and I never want to stop writing it. And I thinks it's going to be fun!

That's all the questions for now. Goodbye my kitties! Nyan!~