Britney Issues | Zion Kuwonu

Chapter 9

That just completely killed me.

I never thought Zion would say that to anyone..especially me.

Tears streaming down my face.

Right now I don't care about anything at all except for what Zion said.

I couldn't take the pain, so I tore up my room completely.

My best friend...and the love of my life...is now gone....out of my life.

I got all my clothes and threw them on the floor carelessly.

All the papers on my desk, scattered on the floor.

My bed flipped. My mattress on the other side of the room.

I got my phone and deleted every picture of Zion.

I threw my phone on the floor and it broke.

My laptop smashed against my wall.

I looked and saw pictures of me and Zion smiling.

More tears started coming.

I took them and tore them up.

Every single picture up on my wall became confetti in the air.

Too much thoughts were in my head.

Why Zion? Why? Why did you change?

You're not the person I fell in love with anymore...

I thought I was your best friend.

More and more thoughts coming in my head.

I fell on my messed up mattress and sobbed quietly.

After everything that was happening , I didn't notice all the yelling and screaming coming from outside my door.

Jessica, Brandon, Edwin, and Yasmin screaming 'What's going on?!' And "MILA OPEN THE DOOR!"

I ignored them.

I saw something shine near my desk.

That's when I realized it was my razor.

Yes, I use to cut. Why? All my past relationships. Zion was the only one that knew that i use to cut.

Flashback

"Camz?! Where are you?!"

I ignored him.

I don't know how he found my hiding spot.

I cut. No not for attention.

The tree house I found in the woods.

This is the only place I cram be alone.

"Just one more cut." I whispered.

That's when I heard a gasp.

I jumped and it made me cut deeper than I should and let out a loud scream.

Zion came running to me and held me.

I saw his face. Pure sadness, anger, and confusion.

I saw a tear leave his eye.

"Why?" He asked with a cracked voice. (A/N: watch that video on Zion's IG of him doing the tentoes challenge to hear how his cracked voice sounds, cutest thing ever tho 😭)

I couldn't answer.

"Camz. I can't believe you're doing this..." he said disappointingly.

"Zion I-I'm sorry." I sobbed.

I started crying in his chest.

I felt something fall on my head.

It's Zion's tears.

I looked up at him and wiped his tears.

"Zion. I'm sorry I'm doing this."

"Camz. Please. Promise me you'll stop doing this and you'll never do this again."

I nodded.

"No. Say you promise. We're best friends. We ALWAYS keep promises. Right?"

I nodded slightly.

"I promise Zion that I'm never gonna cut myself ever again."

I hugged him tightly.

He hesitated at first but then he hugged me back.

"I'm sorry." I whispered.

"It's ok Camz." Is what he said and kissed my cheek.

End of flashback

He carried me al the way home that night and spent the night to make me feel better.

I picked it up and examined it.

I guess promises were meant to be broken.

I took it and gently slit it on my wrist.

It hurts so bad but feels so good at the same time.

I did another. And another. And another.

Until my foot burst open.

Loud gasps heard behind me.

I dropped the razor and turned around.

The crew.

Tears pouring out their faces.

I'm sorry....

I ran past them and out of my house.

I don't know where I'm running to but anywhere but here.