My story

8th grade

So in 8th grade I was in cyber I started cyber in 7th, So I was over my best friends house (Jojo jelly bean) and (Clarissa) were there and I was going through Facebook. Well, I liked this picture and I looked at who posted it. Raina **** posted this "Oh shit oh shit" was going through my mind and I told my two best friends.

"Did you unlike it?!?!?" Jojo jelly bean asked

 "Yes, of course, I did," I said 

"I think that you should be okay," Clarissa said

Me and Jelly bean agreed, I heard my messenger go off 

"Hey I'm sorry about everything I missed your bitch ass, will you forgive me" Well you know who that was.

My Anxiety got really bad I just wanted it to go away so I forgave her. Raina and her boyfriend continued to talk. Three days later her boyfriend messaged me "I was looking around at your photos and you have a nice body" That's all I remember from the message but he started to ask me for nudes. I blocked him well, that didn't last long he made more and more accounts. 

"If you don't send me one I will end your life." I know that he gets high and drunk I didn't want him to do anything, So I sent him one and I told Raina that he did that to me I told her that her boyfriend is a liar and a cheater. "If you don't tell me the truth I will expose you all over Facebook" I made a bullshit story up I didn't want to get exposed 

"You're exposed BITCH!" 

I ran into the dining room and tried to OD on my Dad's heart medication.

Nothing happened I tried to OD several times after that. I tried to walk in front of a car but Clarissa pulled me back.

I started to talk to this boy on Facebook well turns out it was Aaron the one I slapped in 6th grade well we continued to talk and my depression got so bad I tried to OD again. I called Aaron and told him that I need help, He said "Lizzy listen to me if your not gonna call 911 for you then call them for me I know you can"

I was in the hospital for 10 days. Then I ended up going back for 7 days.....once again I went back 3 weeks.....I went back after a week 4 weeks then I went to a Das program for over a month. Now I have family therapy and a regular therapist...After everything, i tried to kill myself over 28 times. But it's okay because I have an amazing boyfriend named Aaron <3  I love him with all my heart I am trusting him with my heart and I trust that he won't break it.

Baby if you're reading this know this.

You saved my life so many times and I don't know why I'm still here but I like to believe that it's for me and you to be together. We have both been through a lot but remember that you will always have me here.