Chpt. 8: Speak❄

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by miixedCC

by miixedCC

(Writing this listening to 17 his new album literally fucking crying.)

September 28th, 2017:
X's pov

Its been one week since we found out that it was Jadas dad. She hasn't been the same lately. She hasn't talked to noone not even trip. Currently i'm at her house trying to talk to her.

"Princess? Plz talk to me."I begged. She looked over at me and straight faced me. "Damnit Jada jus talk to me for a damn minute i need to know whats wrong."

"Hes gonna hurt me."She mumbled as tears trickled her water line.

"Jada what? Whos gonna hurt you?"I looked at her. Ima kill who eva touch my babygirl cuh ain't noone touchin her.

"My dad. Hes gonna hurt me."She said busting into tears. She covered her face with her hands sobbing. I grabbed her wrist taking her hands away from her face. She put her head down making me lift it back up with my finger.

"Baby, Listen ain't nobody and i mean nobody finna touch you. And if they try me trip ski pump purp even fucking keke are gon whoop ass. I promise you."I told her truthfully. She sniffled and wiped her undereyes. I grabbed her jaw pulling her into a kiss. "I love you, princess. Ima ride for you."

She looked at me and smiled. She wrapped her arms around my neck tackling me in a hug. I fell back onto the bed letting her lay on top of me. I slipped my hand up the back of her shirt scrathing her back softly. I watched the shadow of the raindrops on her window reflect onto the wall running down like tears.I hummed a song very known to her. 'Save me'.

"So save me before i fall......... So save me i don't wanna be alone."She sung. I smiled knowing she can sing along with me. I stopped humming thinking she was asleep. "No keep going. It sounds pretty."She mumbled into the crease of my neck. I laughed at her choice of words, 'pretty'. She sat up with her eyes blood shot red. I furrowed my eyebrows.

"Whats wrong?"I asked grabbing the back of her neck softly bringing it back down onto my chest. She cried silently. "Its ok."

"I can't loose you Jahseh no matter what. You're what keeps me sain. What holds me down. I don't want you to switch up on me or-or cheat. I can't handle that. Expecially not now."She sniffled.

"What'd i tell you earlier? I told you that i'd ride for you. That i fucking love you. I hope you understand you are my all, jada."I told her picking her head up again looking deeply into her eyes. She sniffled. "I'm never going to switch up cheat or jus up and leave you. Don't ever fucking think that."

She nodded wiping her tears. I sat up moving her off my lap and walking into the bathroom. I turnt the knob turning on the water and grabbed the drain plugger sealing it.

"What're you doing?"Jada asked walking in here. I looked under her sink and saw two vanilla(Issa nut👅💦bracefaceccc) scented candles.

"Go grab the lighter on your night stand."I told her. She did as told and came back with the lighter. I lit the candles setting them on each side of the tub. I grabbed the body wash and squirted some into the tub making it bubbly. "I ran us a bath."I smiled chessy.

"Thank you."She smiled kissing me. I really missed seeing that lil smile. She started to strip along with me. As soon as all of her clothing was off and onto the floor she got into the tub. Her bathtub was big so there was enough space for both of us. She sat to where her back was on my chest.

"Jahseh?"She sighed playing with the water. I hummed responding to her. "Do you ever think what death feels like?"

I looked straight ahead trying to find the words.

"Jada, i'm already dead. I died a long time ago."I replied truthfuly. She played with my fingers and nodded.

"Maybe one day, everything will go numb and i can't feel it anymore. Maybe it'll all just stop and be silent."She said intertwining our fingers. Never in my life has anyone ever related so much to me.

"I've been hoping that for a very long time."I told her. She layed her head back resting it on my shoulder. "This is relaxing."I spoke softly. She nodded closing her eyes planting a kiss on my chest.

"I think i'm obsessed with you."She whispered. I looked down at her just to see her looking back at me. "I'm your biggest fan always will be."

Sorry if this is short but ima update a long chpt soon my love also THERES A BOY IN MY SCHOOL WHO LOOKS LIKE X EXCEPT FOR THE GRILL AND TATS BUT HE FUCKING GORGOUES I WANNA CUFF😍😍😭😭

I love you guys💞💞