Love triangle: jaegan

Chapter 11

Raegans POV:

Justin and I end up falling asleep cuddling. As I wake up I see his cute little face snuggled on my chest and I smile. Justin slowly opens his eyes and looks up at me leaning in for a kiss. I don't kiss back, seeing what would happen. "Rae please kiss me backkkk" he wined. I smile, grab his cheeks, and kiss him slowly. The kiss elevates quickly and before I know it Justin is on my lap tangling his fingers in my hair. He pulls back trying to catch his breathe but I pull his face back to mine. I Needed his lips back on mine moving in perfect sync, it's like they were made for each other. Just as I was trying to take off Justin's shirt he pulls back and gets up.

"Raegan..." Justin says.
"I'm sorry Justin I didn't mean..." I feel startled and bad for the smaller boy 
"It's just.. I am not ready. I just got out of a relationship and... I can't do this" Justin slowly backs up out of the room, flys down the stairs, and runs out the door.

Fuck I ruined this all. I run to my bathroom and grab my new pack of blades.

Trigger warning ⚠️

Grabbing a blade, I slide it across my arm making a small cut, 1 Justin doesn't love me. Sliding the blade across my arm for a second time making it bleed more, 2 I'm a fuckup. I cut one more deep wound into my arm, 3 I don't WANT to be here anymore...I don't DESERVE to be here anymore.

Trigger warning ⚠️ over

I cover the cuts and go to my room because I feel a little dizzy, a nap sound good right about now, at least when I'm sleeping I don't have to feel the pain...my emotions.

Justin's POV:

I feel guilty for running away from Raegan. When we were kissing it all felt right, it felt perfect and that was the problem. I don't deserve Raegan so I need to hurt him. If I hurt him then he won't want me anymore and he can fall in love with some beautiful girl or handsome boy because that's what Raegan deserves. As I'm waking I start to think, what would happen if I killed myself? I start to walk over to the bridge and stand on the edge. right when I'm about to jump...

Raegans POV:

I end up not being able to fall asleep, so much for sleeping my problems away. All I wanna do right now is talk to Justin but I don't have the guts to call him right now, I feel awful for taking it to far. Instead of calling him I write him a text message that said...

2 cliffhangers? OoPs 🙊

I honestly am such a bad writer 😅

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