kwon soon young
I've loved you since I was seven years old
But I knew that a 'we' could never happen between us
You were always busy
You had friends
I was always free
I had no friends.
You always had somebody looking over you.
I sill vividly remember
That one day
That one horrifying day
When you gave that girl a ring
I was devastated.
You started having feelings for a girl.
Somebody more prettier
And funnier
And worthier than me.
You thought nobody was looking
But I was on cleaning duty that day after school.
I saw you in the classroom.
I saw you bring her in, holding her hand.
I was so sad, I looked away.
But when I glanced back, you were already taken from me.
I dropped my broom and ran out of school.
Nobody saw me.
I cried for 16 days and 17 nights.
Ten years has passed since then.
You became famous.
You are a member of South Korea's amazing boy group, Seventeen.
I am so proud of you.
I've been watching over you since your debut back in 2015.
I memorized all of your songs.
I know all the choreographies.
You worked hard to make it to the place you are in today.
I remember you walking to your dance studio every Monday afternoon.
Even as a young 16 year old, you practiced like your life depended on it.
And now, it actually does depend on it.
Yesterday night, I went to your concert.
I was standing right at the edge of the stage, holding a light stick.
When you came near the shouting fans in the front
I waved hello shyly,
Hoping you'd notice me.
You looked at all the girls bouncing along with you as you sang Swimming Fool.
Out of all your songs, that one was my favorite because it described my relationship with you.
[I've fallen into you
I'm struggling because of you
My movements become slower
And I'm starting to suffocate
I'm a swimming fool]
I knew I loved you since the first day you moved next door.
It was during the summer going into second grade.
You came up my driveway while I was reading in my front yard.
You gave me a smile as you waved an uncertain hello and introduced yourself.
You asked me if we could be friends since you were going to be new to the school.
I saw your glistening eyes and immediately fell into you.
And yesterday night, I saw your glistening eyes again.
You made eye contact with me.
We stared at each other for about two minutes straight.
I knew you remembered me.
I could see it in your glistening eyes.
I saw a silent tear fall down your cheeks
And before I realized it, there was a tear on mine as well.
After those two minutes, you walked away silently to your Performance Unit members
Jun, The8, and Dino.
It was time for you to dance to the chorus.
I pushed through the crowd
Holding back the flood of tears that was starting to form in my eyes.
I left the concert without looking back.
And I'm sure you did too.
Ten years later,
I'm still a Swimming Fool.
