Message (A Destiel fanfiction)

Dead To Me

Cas' pov

"I know... I miss him. Holding him. Cuddling with him. Kissing him. His personality his smile his laugh. I miss the way he called me honey. I miss his voice his hugs the way he gets flustered so easily. His big uh you know. Anyways. I don't like fighting with him. I love him so so much. I miss calling him Angel and baby. I miss the way he would nuzzle up in my neck when we cuddled. I don't want to lose him. He's the best thing that's ever happened to me. You don't count because your my brother. I miss him."

"are you sure Dean said this?"

"yes Castiel. I promise."

"Okay." Gabriel left and I sat on my bed replaying the tape. Dean walked in.

SLAP I hit him.

"that's for lying,"

I pushed him on the bed and sat on top of him.

"and this is for what you said." I started making out with him. He moaned. I missed this. He hugged me and pulled me close. I stayed quiet even though I had a thousand words to say. I just wanted to kiss him. I broke the kiss.

"I love you I love that I miss this I need you can we please stop fighting? I can't do this anymore. The only thing I want to do right now is you." Dean said.

"Me too. I can't help falling in love with you." we started kissing again. I slowly took his shirt off. Then he took mine off. He was so so warm I took his belt off and undid his pants. I started Sucking his neck. Then I started slowly moving down. He moaned.

Ding dong. The door bell went off.

I started Sucking his neck again just in case someone walked in. Sam and Gabe walked in "Cas. Door."

"now?"

"yeah now it's Alyssa."

"oh fuck." I got my shirt on. I threw Dean his then he put on his belt and did his pants up. We went downstairs and answered the door. "hey Alyssa."

"hi Cas."

"hi Alyssa."

"hi Dean. What's on your neck?" oh shit. She's going to find out.

"oh probably bruises from Lucifer. It's nothing."

"Okay."

"Alyssa I'm kinda busy right now can you come back later?"

"yeah sure." I closed the door and looked at him. "Dean can I talk to you?" we went to my room.

"where were we?"

"Dean wait. This doesn't change anything."

"can we be friends with benefits?"

"Okay Dean. You sound like a horny teenager."

"that's because I am." I smiled and he kissed me and we took off our shirts and I started Sucking his neck moving down slowly. He moaned. "Dean. Are you happy to see me?"

"turns out I am."

"well well. Guess we'll have to do something about that." just then Sam walks in.

"Sammy. Your a fucking cock block." Dean says

"major cock block." I say as Dean and I giggle.

"I know but we have to go."

"why we stay the night?" then I put my head on Dean's chest.

"because it doesn't change the fact that we don't live here anymore."

"Baby I have to go."

"why?"

"I'll be back in the morning. I promise."

"fine."

"but he's right nothing changes your still not mine."

"I know." I say as he leaves. I grow sadder because he leaves.

Dean's pov

I did something I'll regret. I went to the closet and grabbed rope tied it to the closet and put it around my neck. "it doesn't change anything. Nothing will ever change." I love you Cas. I dropped.

"Dean? Dean?! DEAN!! OH MY GOD NO PLEASE! DEAN DON'T DIE! PLEASE DON'T DIE!" It sounded like I was under water. He lifted up so I could breath then took the rope off. I'm so sorry Sammy.

"DEAN! WAKE UP! DEAN NO! DEAN!"

...

"HELLO 911 I NEED AN AMBULANCE 1349 PRESCOTT MY BROTHER TRIED TO KILL HIMSELF HURRY!"

"Sammy..."

"It's okay Dean you'll be fine!" he carried me outside and put me in the stretcher.