Tokugawa Ieyasu, Au, Hc, and everything what my crazy head can imagine about him

"Disgusting" it's a song drabble of Ieyasu's inner battle

"My heart booms at the speed of light
But the exit sign's always on my mind, always in my sight
I could say that I really want to stay
But the devil inside always wins the fight, always gets his way"

This thoughts came up on Ieyasu's mind while he was watching you reading in the corner of the room challenging him with your carefree smile and your hair flowing gracefully on your shoulders.

He started to search for a rute of scape wishing to drown this strong desire to pull you closer and his own thoughts, losting all concentration to keep reading in his own corner. His eyes wander around the room.

"Jump out the window, gotta get on the highway
When things are getting too attached I need an escape
I'm seeing stars and there is nothing more that I hate, baby
There's something that I gotta say"

"It's disgusting", were the words what slipped from his mouth while he gritted his teeth, looking at you with a big scowl on his soft features. Holding on the next words "how I love you" But slipping out the next ones while he glares at you not knowing how to stop himself. "God, I hate it, I could kill you"

After that his mind came to stop with his thoughts still wandering around.

"Cuz your messing up my name, gotta walk on top of fame"

Turning around to avoid the shame of face you he muttered the next words for himself "But I just wanna touch your face, it's disgusting"

Cursing himself for show off weakness he grabbed his own coat till his knuckles were white and he thought about how much he had changed thanks to you, still thinking it was a sign of weakness "It's disgusting how you change me
From a bandit to a baby
Im not gonna change my name
If I'm gotta walk this walk of shame
Look at what you do to me, it's disgusting"

While you started to make your way to him he jumped backwards from his chair like a scared kitten and he thought:
"My mind blinks like a traffic light
It's green and red, it's stop and go, changing all the time
And it makes me scared that I haven't left
But I'm still right here, more or less"

And his mind goes working again a route of escape but trying to not make obvious it was because of all of this feelings clutching into his chest were smothering him.

"Jump out of traffic, yeah, I gotta go my own way
My head is slipping, too intense, I need an escape
I'm seeing stars and there is nothing more that I hate, baby"

"It's disgusting" (how I love you) "God, I hate it, I could kill you"

(Look at what you do to me) "it's disgusting"

"Chapter by chapter,
I'm falling faster and faster
Becoming Manic and magic,
Its so romanic I panic, oh
Hit the eject button, but It must be stuck somethin's up"

He picked himself up while his inner battle was so much to bear and he walked straight back at you, swallowing his fear to reject and his thoughts threating him

"What did you slip into my drink, wench?"

Your eyes grew wide at his blunt words with a hint of rage in it. Still unsure what to answer at his behavior you just answered him with smile on your face,

"I just brought your usual drink, Mister Tokugawa. The same mocca with strawberry syrup. Why would I-"

Before you could finish your statement he backed you against the shelf and drown your words with his feverish lips, stealing the words from your mouth, while you melt into his passionate kiss.

"It's disgusting how I love you
God, I hate it, I could kill you
It's disgusting how you change me
From a bandit to a baby
Im not gonna change my name
If I'm gotta walk this walk of shame
Look at what you do to me, it's disgusting"

While his mind keeps reminding him how crazy he is for you and how much he needed to feel your warm seeping through your lips.

Muffled words came out from him, while you two part lips to take a breath

"It's disgusting,
Look at what you do to me
Digusting, wench"

That was all what you listened almost like a whisper after you two drown into those seeking kisses and a impertinent knocks on the door.