Bella and Blake having small crushes without each other knowing. Another reason why they can't get together is Jake Bella's big brother and also best friends with Blake. Down the road things happen maybe for the better and maybe for the worst.
I have so much running through my head. One of the things is how the fuck can I be this stupid. I slept with my best friends younger sister, he is going to hate me big time. He has been my friend so long I can't believe I had to do something so stupid to mess it up. I like her a lot, I have liked her for such a long time but Jake told me to back off so I tried to back off. Once Bella hit around fourteen or fifteen is when it was really hard because she has to dress and look so beautiful all the time and it is so hard not to just stare. I have been friends with Jake for eighteen years now, we were born about a month apart. Our moms met at one of those pregnancy groups. I feel like the shittiest best friend in this whole entire world. How can I go behind his back like that? He would not approve any of this why did I do this? He told me a hand full of times before not to have a crush or hit on his sister. It is really hard when you have loved a person for most of her life without her knowing. I have been keeping this a secret from her for years. I would mess around with her when we were younger because I thought that was flirting in a way. I know I fucked up but, I need him not to know right now because I would be sad if I lost my best friend.
Bella sometimes is hard to deal with sometimes and is weird most of the times. I think her weirdness is cute and that is one of the things I like about her. She is the cutest thing ever when she acts weird and she doesn't care. I really do not know if she has any feelings about me but, I really want to try and I will have to talk to Jake and maybe see if Bella and I could test things out. It is hard to see something you want everyday but, you can not have it. It is so hard and so tempting.
I thought that it was kind of cool though to have that connection with someone in that way. It might have been kind of a shock to Bella but, she did consent to having sex. She was Buzzed and I was sober so it could be taken a different saying but, she and I both consented.
Bella's point of view
I get up and get in the shower to get the smell of sex off of my body and I put my hair up in a messy bun and got dressed into a burgundy hoodie a pair of jeans and some boots.
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I go down stairs and get a bowl of cereal. Jake decided that he would come up behind me and scared me asking me why Jack was dancing with another girl at that party last night.
I told him that he cheated on me and that we broke up. Did you delete everything on your phone about him like pictures his number everything , Jake asked. I said no. He gabbed my phone and deleted everything that had to do with Jack and I started to cry. Jake hugged me and Blake waked through the door saying did you have to make her cry again. I left because I felt awkward.
I went to Becca's house and we headed are way to school. I pulled my car into my parking space and went to our locker. I was so excited to start a new day and I don't have to think about the jerk.
Two class periods go by and i head two our third. Becca sat next to me like always and Blake was sitting right behind us. Becca asked him why the heck he was here and he told her that he needed to get a better grade in this class because last year he only got a c and if he wanted to go to the college he wanted he needed to boost up my grade.
