Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't want to hurt him anymore
I dont want to take away his life
I don't want to be a murderer.
"Baby wake up." I felt something soft and warm press to my ear... Lips?
"I made you breakfast." A raspy voice whispered into my ear. I opened one of my brown eyes to be met with big bright green ones looking at me hopefully.
"Mmm what time is it?" My alarm usually woke me at 7.
"Its 6:45, I know you have to leave at 8:30 to beat traffic so I thought I'd wake you a bit earlier so we could eat together" he smiled down at me.
"Thank you haz." I lent up connecting our lips. He seemed surprised at first, but the uncertainty lasted shorter then a second, he soon grabbed both sides of my face with his hands, kissing me. Hard. I hasn't kissed him like this in months.
I quickly snapped out of my happy state when I realised what I was doing and instead of the Sparks guilt flooded my veins. I broke away, but Harry didn't seem to mind as he licked his lips and smiled to himself as if he had just achieved something.
"I'm just gonna go to the loo and I'll be down in a second."
"ok babe." He kissed my cheek rising off the bed and walking out our bedroom.
I jumped out of bed. And made my way to the joint toilet. I lent my arms on the bench staring into the mirror.
I wasn't this girl, I didn't do this, I loved Harry so much, he was once my everything, I couldn't do this anymore, I wouldn't do this, this stopped today. I flushed the toilet giving Harry the illusion I actually went instead of staring at myself in the mirror.
When i walked out of the bathroom I shivered from the cold, throwing on the first long sleeved shirt I found on the ground over my singlet.
I made my way downstairs to a lovely aroma. As soon as I poked my head into the kitchen my jaw nearly dropped. Harry had gone all out. There was pancakes, bacon, eggs, sausages, cut up fruit. And it looked like Harry was frying some mushrooms.
"Are we feeding a whole third world country?" I joked. I don't think Harry was expecting me to be there because he nearly dropped the pan.
"No I just didn't know what you want So I uh thought why not make it all" He turned around and his mouth dropped he looked me up and down.
" What?" Why was he looking at me like I just stepped out stark naked? I was wearing a long shirt what was so amazing. Wait this was his shirt. And oh.
"Sorry I didn't realize and this was-"
"No no, it uh looks amazing on you, its just been a while since you've worn my clothes that's all. I love it though." He smiled sweetly at me.
"I miss wearing your clothes." I sighed, we hadn't had a full conversation in the last 4 months.
"Me to, you wearing my clothes." He have me a small smile turning back to the pan.
"I'm sorry." I sighed leaving my elbow in the bench watching his bare back, i wasn't only for not wearing his clothes but the whole past 4 months. For everything I had done.
"No I'm sorry I wasn't here and-"
"You did nothing wrong." I reassured him. It was my own insecurities that got us where we are. And got me in a whole lot of mess.
