When I was 13,
I felt like I was difference,
I was difference from every single soul that lived around me,
Cause there's something in my mind that wanted to be free,
And there's something in my heart that I thought it was wrong,
As it beat with every breath I took,
I felt there's a sin written.When I was 15,
I ran home alone like there was an evil power chased me from behind,
But when I was alone at night,
I realized that those devils lived inside me and controlled my nerves,
Cause there's a feeling that I thought it was wrong fighting to be free,
And fighting to live and revealed the truth that I was lying.When I was 18,
I had my first love,
And everyone thought it was normal for a teen to be loved,
But everything went wrong,
When the truth is I felt something totally disturbing,
As I past by many girls and it didn't seems like it's working,
But as I past by many boys,
Everything went on and on.So I started to hate myself,
I started to blame God,
I started to mad at the people around me,
As I felt a love that was forbid and they taught me to change until they hated me for being who I was,
But one thing they never knew,
They never stood in my shoes,
And till it happened to you,
I don't wanna hear a thing from your mouth.
-arafmohamad
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Secret Love
PoetryPoems and quotes from deep inside my heart and words that I never said with my voices.