IN LOVE WITH MY TEACHER MR.ALSINA ( Completed)

new beginnings



Trinity

So a few weeks has pass and even tho I'm not fully over my decision I'm doing better then I was 2 weeks ago. The physical pain lasting only a few days but the emotional pain I dont know if I'll ever get over it completely. I haven't seen or talk to Alex in about 3 weeks now. He haven't even tried to call he haven't been to school, and when I talked to my sister she told me they been having problems and he don't really be around and he seem just sad mix with mad all the time. She thinks he's seeing someone but I know its because what I did. I thought about calling him but I'm the last person he wants to hear from. I know he's hurting but I am too he don't understand what I had to go through. It was so much on me. I broke up with Isaiah I didn't want to keep leading him on when I knew deep down I was in love with Alex. But we still friends and chill and talk all the time its so much better this way hes like my best friend. I can talk to him about anything and I do I told him the truth about everything and he understood he didn't judge me or nothing he said he knew something was up with Alex and I but not this deep. Anyways Alice is having a lil get together at Max house today so that's where I'm on my way too now. I assume Alex will be there. Part of me really wants to see him, yes I still love him I don't care about any of that other shit with my sister. I tried to stop loving him I can't it hurts more to let go sometimes. I pulled up and Alice was out side already. I looked around and saw Alex car too.

"Hey boo, glad you made it" she said hugging me.

"Me too I really needed to get out the house." I said following her in

  Once we got in I said hey to everyone. I was a little sad I didn't see Alex so I went to sit at the bar.

"His in the Studio"  Max said sitting down next me.

"I want looking for him" I said sipping my drink.

"True, how you holding up?" He asked

"I'm better, how's he doing?"

"He doing ok" he said

"That's good"

"Well enjoy ima go find that girl of mind" he said getting up

"Ok I will"

"And I know you said you won't looking for him but that's where he is." he said walking away.

When I walked in the studio Alex was just staring a song .

"This is my cover versions of Song Cry by August Alsina and ill like to dedicated to someone who could of been special to me" he said before starting

he couldn't see me but I could see him. I never knew he could blow like this.

"Sometimes I get emotional
When I can't seem to find the way I'm supposed to go
And all these so-called people that I'm supposed to know
They be the main ones
Smile up in your face, but behind your back they hate
So I hope you know
You're like the only reason I'm emotional
My tears fall like water so that I can grow
Not like I was before
Tryna make a change, I need something more

I can't hold back these tears
Let me cry
They say a man ain't supposed to cry

So I'mma let the song cry
I'mma let my soul cry through these words
I need to try to free my mind
Sometimes I need to cry just to ease my hurt
But when I let the song cry
Hope you don't think I still won't ride for mine
Every rose needs the rain sometimes
But know that you can dry your eyes this time
Let the song cry"

I'm not going to lie I thought the song was about me till he did the 2nd virse.

"What am I supposed to do?
Hold it all together when I think of you?
In my heart I'm thinking you were gone too soon
May you rest in peace, yet I can't sleep
It's my point of view
Got me in a state of mind, I'm so confused
Crying raindrops so that I can bloom
So what am I to do?"

      The song was about the baby I got rid of. I looked up at him and as he sung the song he was crying. I really hurt him and it brakes my heart to see him like that. I always knew Alex loved me but I never knew just how much. He came out and saw me he just stood there looking at me.

"I'm sooo sorry" I said runing to him

He grab me and held me in his arms kissing me with so much love. After 2 minutes he let me go.

"I'm so-"

"No Alex I'm sorry. I should have never did what I did without telling you. I was just so lost and had so much on my mind. Your with my sister how could I bring a child in this world like this. But Alex I don't care anymore about what anyone have to say what anyone thinks I dont care about you being with Jennifer. I love you Alex and I'll wait no matter how long I'll wait for you because I know one day we'll be together." I said as the tears fell from my face.

"Trinity I'm not going to lie what you did that shit hurt me like I never been hurt before. I never loved anyone as much as I love you. That shit crazy I won't suppose to fall in love with you I'm your teacher.but I couldn't help it Beybeh I love you and I choose you and always will. I know things is difficult right now but if you give me time it will get better"

"I love you Alex White"

"I love you more Beybeh" he said holding me tight and at the moment I had my mind mad up I don't care if he's with her guess we going to have to share because he's my man too.