musical one-shots!

he doesnt love you

So, this is the second one shot in this book! Sorry I havent updated, I've been pretty busy with band, school, and friends. So, I hope you enjoy this! I'll see you at the end of the chapter!
T R I G G E R W A R N I NG

--Evans POV--

"Evan, can I see your phone, for just a second?" Evan's mom asked.
"Yeah, sure. Why?"
"There's a texting app where you can meet people, maybe you can find new friends and help

That's what she told me. She lied. It only made things worse.

Milk: hey ev
Treeboi: yeah con?
Milk: I think I love you.

Thinking back, I'm so stupid. Thinking he would actually love me.

Milk: hey I'm at ur door
Milk: I brought someone I want you to meet
Treeboi: okay I'll be down in a sec

He brought her.
Amanda.

I opened the door with a grin on my face, happy to see Connor. I know I just saw him two days ago, but I love him, so, you can't really blame me.
"Hey ev. This is Amanda, my girlfriend."
I looked back up at him with wide eyes.
Girlfriend? I thought those moments meant something.

If I wouldn't of given my mom my phone, this wouldn't of happened.

"Hey, Amanda, was it?" I asked, she nodded. "I'm going to need to talk to Connor here, just for a second. We'll be over by that oak tree, just yell for one of us if you need something. M-my name is Ev-evan by the way. Its n-nice to meet you." I walked away, grabbing Connor by the arm and pulling him along.

I knew it wouldn't last.

"first, let me just say, she is a very beautiful woman and she seems amazing. You deserve her, not me." I looked down at my feet, "I thought those moments meant something to you. You told me you loved me, wouldn't leave me. You promised. Now look at where we are." I mumbled slightly, tears threatening to fall out of my aqua blue eyes. I looked back up at him for a reaction. The expression on his face was blank. Peaceful, carefree, oblivious to what was happening. "Connor?" I asked. No response. "Connor? Are you high?" a couple more seconds of tense silence. "Con-"

It all happened so quickly.

Immediately after he did it, my hand shot up to my nose. I touched it slightly, making myself flinch, and pulled my hand in front of my eyes. Blood.
He doesn't care about you
He doesn't love you
He never did
I started sobbing uncontrollably, barely breathing. I could hear laughing all around me. I looked up, seeing all of the people I've met laughing at me. Jared, Alana, Zoe, Alex, Perry, Amanda. Even my mom was laughing.

As I lay here, curled up, still bleeding and sobbing, I regret my life every sob.

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That... That was dark. I'm sorry. I'll see you next time, my trees.
I love you.
You are beautiful.
You matter.
No one can replace you.
Stay alive, for me?