I went running to the lot. Tears rolling down my face left and right. "I can't" I keep saying. I finally reached the lot. "Dammit!" I said as I was punching the tree. How could I be a queer?
I looked at my fist and saw blood dripping from my knuckles "shit" I said holding my hand. I've never been so upset with myself ever since my parents auto wreck. Maybe more.
"I like girls! I like girls!" I kept saying to myself. My fist was throbbing. I just kept bawling. I was glad to be able to get out of the house before they were able to see me cry, greasers don't cry, so I bolted out of there as soon as possible.
What was Darry and Soda going to say? They would kick me out for good. They would never let a queer in the house. But I knew I love Johnny Cade.
I kept crying and I heard the crunching of leaves behind me "huh?" I yelled while looking behind me wiping the tears from my face.
"Ponyboy?" It was Johnny. If I told Johnny he would hate me for good. He will never talk to me again. But I couldn't lie to Johnny Cade my crush.
I turned quickly. Trying my best to stop crying. "Ponyboy! Are you okay?" Johnny yelled running. "What are u doing here" I mumbled trying to hold back tears. My parents were fighting again so I went here. But that's the the problem.
"Nothing Johnny Nothing!" I yelled tears still streaming down my face. "Ponyboy, there was something going on with you! And I wanna help! Your my best friend!'' I suddenly hated that word.
"Well I love someone, b..but they don't k..know and I d...don't think they love me back" I spat out. "Man ! Who is it ! I bet that someone loves you!" Johnny suddenly got red.
"No you'll hate me!" I yelled "Pony, I won't hate you I will never hate you" Johnny said while putting his arm around my shoulders. I laid my head on his chest and listening to his heart beat and his holding me I felt safe.
"Okay" I said gulping hard. I looked at Johnny. I looked hard into his dark brown eyes. Johnny smirked at me "cmon man" I suddenly stopped crying and smiled at him. "Johnny, I have feelings for you".
This chapter was a bit longer because it was most important. Thank you guys for supporting me and my first story! Stay Gold (:
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"Feelings" a Johnnyboy ship
Romance" me and Johnny walked into school and Johnny got real close walking in a felt my chest get tight and I felt like I couldn't breathe, but I was also smiling happy to be with him" Ponyboy feels some sort of way with Johnny that gets him nervous and...
