I laid there, in my bed doing nothing. The girls had come over at lunch and talked to me, which only made me feel a little better. But they brought me food, and supported me. When they left, I just did nothing but think. Why was I so stupid? I fell for him. Grayson just doesn't have feelings for me, why did I think he did? Then, there was a 'clack' at my window. And another, and then another. I sulked my way over to the window, looking outside. And guess who I see? The heartbreaker. The idiot was banging on my window with rocks. I opened my window, trying to tell him to screw off. "Go away." I said, but Grayson was quick to climb up the house wall and hop into my window. How did he do that? He stood inside my room, just looking at me. "Hey Mads." "Go away." I said again, this time he looked more hurt. "Why?" "Because I fucking told you too." I spat back, and he looked taken aback. "I just wanted to talk." "Well guess who doesn't want to talk?" I asked sarcastically. "Why are you being like this?" "Grayson, please just stop." "Stop what?" I wanted so bad to scream in his face, and tell him how I had feelings for him. And how he should leave Julianna to be with me, but I just couldn't do that.not now. I couldn't let him know. "Grayson, leave me alone and do something else." I said as calmly as I could. "Like what?" "How about you go fuck Julianna?! I wouldn't care! Just do something besides being with me!" I finally snapped in his face, and his face went blank. "Mads, please.." "No, don't call me that! Only my FRIENDS can call me that! Get out already!" "Why are you being like this? Stop." He said slowly, and he went to reach for my hand. "No! I won't stop! How do you do that to people? How can you just move on in seconds and leave the others in the dirt? Well guess what, you did that to me." I said sternly, trying my best to keep my cool. "How can you say I left you in the dirt? Your the one who's saying get out!" He said harshly, and looked my dead in the eye. "Mads, tell me why your doing this." He said quietly. At this point, I had lost it. The words were just coming out. I just couldn't stop myself. "Your blind. You know it hurts to see you with someone else, when the whole time I want you to myself." Fuck, I just said it out loud, and I couldn't take it back. He looked scared, and confused, and more confused. There was a few seconds of silence, but he spoke up quietly. "What? You want to be with me?" He said, only above a whisper. "Please just leave, I've already said enough..." I said, Turing my back it him. After 10 seconds, I turned my head to where he was standing before, and he wasn't there anymore. He left. As much as I said it, I didn't actually want him to leave. I just messed up our whole friendship because of my words. I just ended it all with Grayson, he would never like me...
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• • • • Short chapter, but I'm updated tonight too;) does Grayson have feelings for Madison? Find out sooooooon.
