Enjoy the Silence

two pairs of glasses

I remember
The night you told me
I was beautiful.

I blushed and looked away from the screen.
I took a sip of water and smiled.

I remember
The night you told me
You liked me.

I squealed loudly and jumped on my bed.
I listened to Taylor Swift and thought about you.

I remember
The night
You told me we’d be in love.

You quoted a lyric from my favorite song and my heart skipped a beat.
I felt butterflies through text and loud girly squeals.

I remember
The night
You told me I could wear your white hoodie.

I smiled and my brain went fuzzy.
I denied your request but my heart went pounding through my chest.

I remember
The night
I was told you lead me on.

I stared at the wall and tears went streaming down my face.
I sighed and felt my heart being torn out of me.

I remember
The night
I ignored you.

I got messages from a few people and I was over with what other people had to say.
I was heartbroken.

I remember
The night
You tried to hold my hand.

You saw me and I saw you, I was still heartbroken but I couldn’t resist.
You held out your hand for a high-five but you grabbed my hand and entwined our fingers together.
I felt sparks and butterflies but I pushed your hand away and sighed.

I remember
The night
You told me you were sorry.

You said you didn’t know what you were doing, but you knew exactly what you were doing with that girl.
You said you were sorry that you hurt me and I got mad at you, we got into an argument.

Our very first argument.

I remember
The night
You told me you didn’t like me.

We got into another argument about what you did and you said you didn’t like me.
I sighed and tried to get over you.

I remember
The night
You were staring at me.

You were across the room and I felt your eyes on me.
I felt butterflies but I couldn’t stop myself from looking at you and I smiled, so did you.

I remember
The night
You got jealous.

This guy was making a joke and “proposed” to me.
You got jealous and stormed off away with your friends.
I got confused and ignored it.

I remember
The night
My sister told me you found someone new.

We were in her car on the way to Sonic and she told me you guys got into an argument about your actions.
She said you are immature.
And she’s right.
My sister and I’s other best friend told me you found someone else.
With the same girl who you broke my heart with.
She said you guys are in a relationship together.

And I’m happy for you.
You belong with a girl like yourself.
A girl who is selfish and beautiful.

You broke my heart.

Again.

~amiee irene.