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Chapter 6: Tears From Being Afraid

Just when it's getting good. I slowly start to freeze. Just when it's feeling real I put my heart to sleep. It's the memory I can see. Then this fear comes over me. Understand that I don't mean, to push you away from me. Why am I so afraid to crash down and lose my heart again? I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me? Why am I so afraid to break down and lose my mind again? I don't know, I can't see, what's come over me...

I was listening to Afraid by Vanessa Hudgens as I packed my bag for our trip. I was really wondering where the hell we were going. I'm really afraid that it's going to be some place I don't like or something. I finished packing and decided to leave Harry a message in case he worries about me. I called his phone and he didn't pick up and I know why. He's camping of course, but I left him a message.

"Hey, babe. It's Rose. I just wanted to call and say I hope you're having a good time camping with your family and that I'm going on a trip with my family. and I have no idea where we're going if you're asking, I just have a somewhat bad feeling in my gut about it, but I'm sure I'll be fine. Any way. I'm probably going to be gone for about a week, so I'll see you when I get back. I love you," I hung up and sighed.

Then there was a knock on my door, "Come in," I said out loud. I heard the door open and I turned in that direction and my dad was smiling as he walked in.

"Ready, hun?" he asked and I nodded taking a breath,

"As ready as I'll ever be," He nods taking my bag and guided me out the door.

We headed down the stairs and out the door. My step mom was already in the passenger seat. I sighed and dad put my bag in the back seat helping me in as I sat on the other side. I buckled up and dad got in buckling up and starting the car.

He then said, "When we get there I need your phone because they're not allowed to be on and I know that you like your phone to be on when you have it, but it won't be with me," I nodded. I thought it was a little weird, but shrugged it off.

I stared at the picture of Harry and I on my screen smiling like an idiot. I looked out the window, putting my headphones in again blocking out the world thinking of Harry as we drove. I listened to some of my favorite songs. The A Team by Ed Sheeran, Sneakernight by Vanessa Hudgens, Push It To The Limit by Corbin Bleu, and many many others. I soon fell asleep and I don't know how long I was asleep though.

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I soon woke up and my dad was pulling up to a 3 story building. I was confused as I looked at my dad. He got out and my step mother stayed in the car. He got my bag out and I got out myself. He held out his hand. I didn't want to give him my phone I had a bad feeling about it, "You mother will be inside in a minute," I stayed quiet as my dad took me inside and there weren't many people here. They were all wearing normal every day clothes, but a lot of them were men, not even close to my age.

I got closer to dad afraid that I was going to get touched inappropriately. He just held me closer and brought me over to the counter. This didn't feel right at all. My dad just rubbed my shoulder a little bit and talked to the person at the counter. I decided to just zone out. My dad looked at me and said, "Rose, our room awaits," he says and I nodded. He helped me to our room

When we got inside the room there was just one bed a window and a few other things, but the bad thing was that it looked like a hospital room.

"Dad, why does this only have one bed when all three of us are going to be sleeping in here."

He took a breath and sat me on the bed, "Your mother and I aren't staying."

I looked at him, "What? I thought this was a trip for all 3 of us," I said standing up turning away.

He shook his head, "I'm afraid not."

I gave him a glare, "You lied to me?" my voice cracks. He took a step closer and reached his arms out. I took a step back, "No, don't touch me," I let the tears fall, "You said you wouldn't ever lie to me."

"It was for your own good, Rose!"

I turned to him,"You expect me to believe that after you lied to me!"

"Yes I do! I am your father. I love you!"

I rolled my eyes, "Yeah, you really love me now that you lied to me!"

He laughed a little, "You just don't get it, Rose. Lola said that you need to be here for your own safety!"

I looked at him shocked, "What?!"

He realized what he said, "I need to go," he left and closed the door. I sat on the bed and cried.

She lied to me too. How many more people have lied to me? I bet everyone I ever came in contact with. I just crawled into the bed and laid there crying myself to sleep. I can't believe this. I'm in a mental hospital because of Lola. I thought she would always be the motherly figure towards me when no one else will. I guess she lied about that too. Lied about everything. I feel betrayed more than ever now. Why must my life be full of tears, happiness, angriness, and sadness. Why must it be me? I just want to die. I just need Harry right now to hold me and say everything will be fine. I have no way of contacting him what-so-ever.

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Over the past few days I've been been doing nothing, but crying wishing I had someone. I have nobody now. Hell, I wouldn't mind if my step mother was here. I sat up and headed to the bathroom to get a shower. I got in the bathroom and got a bath instead. I fell asleep in the tub and dreamed about Harry and I...

Harry and I sat in the flower meadow with lots of hills and a few trees. I was leaning against him and letting my hair blow in the wind. His arm was wrapped around my waist as we watched the flowers blow as well. I looked up at him and his curly hair was blowing. He looked down at me and smiled. He leaned down and kissed me softly. I smiled kissing him back. He smiled into the kiss and pulled away. He stood up and helped me up. He took my hand and we started running through the flowers laughing and smiling like little kids. He took me over to a tree and he panted.

He lightly shoved me against the tree kissing me. I didn't hesitate to kiss back and bring him closer to me. I put my hand in his curls as he put his hands on my hips bringing me closer to him as we kissed. He smiled pulling away and we starteed taking off again. He tripped on 'accident' making us fall down. I giggled as I fell on top of him, "So nice of you to join me," Harry says cheekily. I just laughed as we stared into each other's eyes and only an inch away from each others face...

I shot up hearing a knock on the door. I got up and wrapped a towel around me. I got  some clothes on and got out of the bathroom and I saw one of the nurses there. I opened the door and she walked in, "Alright Miss. Stone, we need you to take some medicine for me."

I shook my head, "There's no way in hell I'm taking medicine," I said to her.

She handed it to me, "You need to take it."

I put it down, "Leave now."

She shakes her head, "Not until you take those pills."

I shoved her out and locked the door. I sat on the bed and cried. I rocked back and forth crying. I fell back asleep after I cried for about an hour. Where's Harry? I need him here with me right now. I just slept dreaming about Harry and I once again.