Synacky~Just Not To Your Face

First move (1)

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Date: 05.04.11                                                                                         Time: 23:45:02 PM

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To: Zacky Baker  (vengeance_6661@bluezone.com)

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From: Brian Haner (SYN_GATES_@outlock.com)

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There’s always times when I think about what could have happened if it were to be us.

The times when I’ve never been able to forgive myself is.. eh.. I don’t know how many.

I always think about the times when we would fight about the smallest things.. like who was the sexiest one of us.. whom who loved the other most. That was the best times of my life. The love we shared was so special. You always knew how to open up my heart when I had threw away the key to it.

It sucked when you would cry so hard those nights when you were in that unbelievable pain… I could’t help you out, and you couldn’t help yourself either. I remember what you told me when you dreamed that the the stars form different kinds of patterns than the real ones they forms. They flew over the sky as if they were magical creatures from a fiction. Like the reality had become more challenging to the naked eye. The light would search for your painful body and heal it.

Was this really your dream.. Or was it mine? I still don’t remember clearly. Everything is a blur now. Everything seems so far away, like the evil witch that you knows came to life and snatched the good angel’s wings with curse darker than hell itself.

I would fight for those times when the light shined in your eyes. They made me believe in myself, that I did something right to make you happy. Your happiness always made my soul fly. I was afraid that I wouldn’t keep up the love we had together, but you convinced me when you flashed me those looks. The looks that made my day. My life and my future.

Forever will I remember when your soft voice would make the cute noises when we made love..  Oh god I miss those times. I miss when I had your hair in my face, when we kissed under the covers. Hiding so none else could be a part of our own little universe. I just looked at you and knew you were mine forever. Moreover, you will always be. Even though someone told you otherwise.. Even though someone put me in the bad light.  

I will never forgive myself for not fighting harder for you. I don’t know how I will be able to live without your colors that paints the circles of my halo.  You would do anything for me. For our future and for our relationship.

I can’t sleep tonight.  I’m helpless. So in case you have forgotten me, forgotten everything.. I just wants to remind you that my tears will form rivers. I can promise you that I will never stop crying for you.

I hope you’re still as happy as I was back then when I shared your world. I hope she is the one for you and makes your world complete.  I really hope she sings you a lullaby every night. I hope that she kiss your cheeks every single time your pain gets too strong for you to carry on your own.

I’m so sorry that I couldn’t be the one to support you through this. I know you can do this. I have faith in you. I’m so sorry that I couldn’t be enough.  I don’t know why I’m writing this now.. Maybe its because I never could be able to say this to your face without crying my eyes out?

I think so..

I love you so much. Still..

XO

Your Brian. 

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