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Love or Friendship

Chapter 3 - Love or Frienship

Aika~

"Goodmorning Sis!!" Seungri greet me, and i wave to him not uttering anything. Im so tired, we came home very late last night from Incheon to visit Ces but its okay we do it every year for her Birthday and Death Anniversary. Its been 3 yrs when she leave and didnt come back home for real, when we decided to finally forgive her and talk to her and even plan to surprise her when she comeback and  when we accepted the fact that she did all of that things just for all of us to be safe and happy. When we-

"Zoning out at 8am in the morning, whats on your mind now? Care to share?" Riri asked, that snap me out of my thoughts.

"What are you Facebook Status? Im just thinking about the meeting later" I lied and thanks god he buys it. I really dont want to argue with him today. Shhoott I still have meeting for today... ugghh

"Ohhhh the meeting? Well good luck to you sis!" He said happily knowing that he is not the one that experiencing this horrible things, Riri talk to Mom and Dad that he will not take over the company and now he is engaged with Ellen his girlfriend for 5yrs he met in California. So the end game is me taking over the company. Great.

"When is the wedding?" I asked, and he shrug then smile.

"Early next year!!! Im excited Sis!!" He said hugging me...Yakkk!!! I tried my best to push him but i cant so i give up im too tired.

"I really dont remember you being in serious in your relationship and Ellen eonnie should be careful. Im really hoping she knew was she was doing." I said and he glared at me, well thats true Riri is a certified Playboy. Hes my brother but yeah he is a Playboy. He always have his relationship last for months, the shortest is 3 days only so all of us are surprised when he told us he and eonnie will get married.

"Thats what you call LOVE Aika!!!! L.O.V.E.!!! And we are friends for years before we get together as lovers okay??!! Like you and Jae"  He said. Like me and Jae, i think about that and yeah...they were like us Friends for years and then became together...

"Why frowning?" I look at him, im frowning??

"Something wrong Sis? About you and Jae?" He asked.. And knowing this idiot will not stop until i told him the truth and i dont want him to nag me i should do this, maybe he can help.

"Riri i dont know what to do anymore, I dont know if i love Jae like how he love me... I mean, he is a perfect boyfriend and he knew that im thankful and lucky to have him but he also knew if i really love him like i love Y-, i asked for a break up once but he told me not to, he beg me not to do it and he will wait for me. I dont know but i feel sorry to him, i dont want to hurt him he is my best friend but.. I dont know... i really dont" i said, looking down wondering if this floor can jist eat me alive.

"Is it because of one person i know? You still love him?" Riri Asked...

"Thats a bit... Well trust me i dont know too. When i came back from California, all i want to do is to get back with him. But he said he let go of me, then Ces death came and he became much in higher place in their Mafia world. Now i dont know if i still want to try, but i decided to just look at him from a far. I guess thats what all i can do. Still love him? Maybe. But want to be with him? I dont know" I said and riri goes to my back and hug me from behind, i felt tears runs from my face.

"Its like choosing between Love and Friendship Sis, i dont know what advice to give you. You know how bad my advice is, i dont even know why you obey me when i told you about accepting Jae. Im sorry but the only person i can think that will able to help you is not with us anymore, i wish i can help you my baby sis" He said still hugging me, he is right again thinking about that person he is saying it was Ces, she can give good advice's without being a bias to anyone and just thinking for a good outcome. But she is not here anymore. I remember her letter, her last words to me.

"She told me to follow my heart riri, but the problem is... I dont know what is in my heart anymore"

"Wonpil! Can you give me the report for last months issue?" I said pushing the red button on the table connected to my asst. We just finish the meeting and now im back here at my office.

"Yes maam!!" Wonpil said, wonpil is my classmate in IBHU and now my assistant. Both of us love books so when i found out that he is looking for a job, i offer him and gladly accepted it.

"Here is it Ms.Lee"

"Shut up dude! I told you stop doing that right?" This dude always call me Ms.Lee and i really hate it.

"Well sorry maam because were in you office so i should be your assistant for the time being and for me not to be fired i need to pay respect, Now i need to read some articles placed on my table so it will help to lessen your works" He said pointing at the stacks of A4 papers full with articles and works from our writers. UGGHHHH i still have other things to do!!

"How many?"

"Ahmnn maybe 20-30 works.. Why? Wait no!! I know why did you asked dont even continue, im not a person who reads 10hrs a day ill just do it half for the day Ms.Lee, so finish the things you need and start reading. Okay? Ill bring you Coffee later... Ohhh what do you want for lunch?" He asked.

"Im having lunch with Naoi and Sham dont worry about that, now off you go" i said and shoo him out of my office....I leaned back to my seat and sighed then my eye land to a certain picture frame i grab it and smile.

"Good times"

"Aika, Love for someone is different from the love for a friend. Loving your friend is like loving your  own family and relatives, like what we do to each other. While loving someone is magical, like you always want to be with him, you always want to make and see him smile, you always want him to be safe, always treasure your simple moments together, you get butterflies in your stomach, you feel like you're going to explode when you see him or he talks to you and you're sad when he is sad or you dont see him even just for a day you misses him so much. Sometimes we feel being jealous and angry towards them for no reason and we get over protective or possessive, something like that. Its far from what we feel to our friends, yes we felt sad when they are sad, they make us happy, we miss them. BUT!!! WE DONT GET BUTTERFLIES. Do you get me?"

"I really dont Ces, after all this years i still dont get what is the difference between that two. I hope your here to enlighten me.The fact that i can feel you here with me watching me.. us but you're not here anymore which make me miss you more, Ces... please just... just help me, just tell me what should i do.. I really need you please." I said hugging the picture frame of us i get from our dorm when i leave after graduation. How i wish she can be here and help me to find some answers like what she always do. How i wish she is still with us. How i wish she comes home alive 3 years ago, so all of us are happy.