Me and my best friend of 2 years are taking a break from each other right now and it is kind of really tough on me. As much as I don't want to admit it to my sister and tell her how I really feel about the situation which I will not go into detail in, I don't want my sister to think of me as "dumb" or "pathetic" for taking the situation emotionally. Me and my best friend have been through a lot of hard and dramatic times but I don't want to waste all of the good times (which there were a lot) down the drain. I know that some breaks from people work out while others don't and people never talk to each other again and I am afraid of that happening.
My best friend may not be the most positive person or the best human being in the world but she is still my best friend and I respect her and love her so much. She is the only person that I can really be myself around (other than my sister) and I don't know what I am going to do without her. She is one of the very few people that I openly tell my feelings to and how I view things and think of people.
My best friend is one of the few people that I have ever met that has mostly the same interests with me and I admire how me and her can talk about a certain topic for hours. I admire how tough she is to. She doesn't really take what people say about her personally and I love that.
I really regret not standing up for her when somebody was talking about her. I'm not an outgoing person and she is. She stood up for me when somebody was talking about me but it's hard for me to stand up for people let alone myself. I really wish that I could've though.
I really kind of took her for granted and I want to go back and tell myself all of the things that I could've done to make our relationship stronger and more trust worthy.
