A Broken Girl's Diary

Day 1

I'm all alone in my room with my  thoughts and my inner demons,these two never stop hunting me they are driving me to madness. They Tell me to kill myself sometimes and to kill people other times, I can't control it anymore, what should I do nobody can help and I can't tell no one. There is no escape this is literally hell that I can't escape from.
It's night now and I'm having a headache with my demons telling me to kill myself or hurt myself again what should I do?!
The monsters I was afraid from and thinking that they live under my bed in reality they live inside of me, I would love to drawn them but they know how to swim they can't be killed unless I'm dead.
The thing that I couldn't figure it out is that am I dead ? , am I alive ? Or am I just breathing?!
My family doesn't understand when I tell them that I need to see a psychologist they tell me I just need to stop watching these weird movies than I will be better, actually movies are not the reason of all this the main reason is this life the fake people surrounding me .