He's looking at me?
That's what I thought but his stare traveled from the back of me, so do I, at doon nakaupo ang isang babae, well I can say she's pretty, voluptuously wearing a red halter top partnered with a black cardigan and on her tattered black jeans. Maybe her girlfriend now? I don't know and I don't care. Yes I don't care, but why am I feeling this familiar emotion I have felt before? Nah, it's nothing. Maybe It's just-- nevermind.
I broke my gaze into them, ibinalik ko nalang ang pagtingin sa labas ng bintana. I heaved a deep sigh. I finish my coffee and gathered all my things, I need to go home, It's already late.
Pagkalabas ko sakto namang bumuhos ang malakas na ulan, I don't have a choice I guess, magpapaulan nalang ako, but how about my things? Mga papel pa naman ito at baka mabasa. If the weather wouldn't favor you, guess I don't have a choice. It's my unlucky day really, tsk!
As I arrive home, I go to the bathroom, prepare my bath and soaked my body at the tub. Then suddenly sleepiness engulf me.
'Cleshiarine Shermuel Astucia will you be my wife?'
The surroundings are full of balloons, red and white rose petals are scattered all over the ground, and a big tarpaulin where the slide show of our pictures where shown.
I don't know what to say, My heart is overwhelming with joy, my tears slowly fall down my face. I can't even utter a word.
'What now baby, don't make me wait.' He said jokingly. I hear the laughter of our friends and our family members.
I just nod and smiled at him sweetly and finally I alredy found my voice.
'Yes, I will!' The smile on his face widened, his tears slowly falls down his face, he stands up and pulls me for a passionate kiss. I can't seem to hear the voice of the people cheering to us, all I can hear is our hearts rapidly beating. As we broke our kiss, we face our friends and relatives, congratiolations is all we can hear from them and we reply them a thank you.
Then a terrible thing happened. That broke us down. The smile on my face slowly disappear.
Pauwi na kami, ihahatid panga niya ako we are happily planning for our wedding, until a truck lost it's break and crash into our car, bigla niya akong niyakap, that is the last thing that I remember as darkness consumed me.
I slowly opened my eyes, ang sakit ng katawan ko, tinignan ko ang paligid, nararamdaman kong may bumubuhat saakin hindi ko ngalang maaninag kung sino o ano. The sound of the ambulance and police mobile resonated on my ears. It feels like I was bombarded thousands of rocks as I remember what just happened. The tears pooled on my eyes.
I suddenly oppened my eyes and it strated to water, then unanticipatedly the room was filled with my sobs and hiccups.
A memory in the past that I don't want to remember again. The day that supposed to be one of the happiest part of our life turns into a nightmare. A nightmare that will never turn into a dream.
After I blurted my tears out, I finished my things and go to bed. I can't sleep. It's alredy two o' clock in the morning when I got my sleep.
A bowl of cereals and a glass of orange juice to fill my morning up. I finished my breakfast and take a bath.
As I look myself into the mirror, my eyebags are so big and there are black circles around it, I put a concealer, and put a light makeup on my face, I'm wearing my blue off shoulder dress together with my three inch sandals, and channel bag. I get my things, my car's key and I'm ready to go.
Pagkarating ko sa building ay nag park na ako at dumiretso sa may elevator, but before I enter into the elevator I saw a familiar face, What is he doing in here? Buti nalang at nagsara na ang elevator at hindi ko na kailangang pigilan ang sarili ko para lapitan siya at mabuti nalang din hindi na siya nakaabot at ayaw ko siyang makasabay. Pagkarating ko ng office namin ay dumiretso na ako sa cubicle ko, kinalabit agad ako ng katabi ko, dadaldalan na naman ako nito.
"May balita ako." Sinasabi ko na nga ba, ang aga aga ano na naman kayang balita ang nasagap nito.
"At ano naman yoon Yunah?" tanong ko, na c-curious din ako, bakit ba.
"May bagong Investor daw tayo." Ano naman ngayon? tanong ko sa isip ko.
"And take note hindi lang basta Investor, ang gwapo pa!" dugtong pa niya with matching twinkling of her eyes.
"Alam mo mag trabaho ka nalang, masigawan ka pa diyan."
"Sungit, pero pupuntahan daw nila ang lahat ng department kaya maiwan muna kita at mag aayos lang ako, bye." Napairap nalang ako, Well I don't care kung sino pa yang investor na yan, though I thank him for choosing our company.
I started my work at hindi ko na sila pinansin sa mga pag-uusap nila tungkol sa investor na yan, marami pa akong tatapusing report at wala akong panahon para pagkaabalahan kung sino man yang poncho pilato'ng investor na yan.
I'm reading some of the reports na kailangang i revise, ng biglang sumigaw si Yunah ng
"They are here!" Dali dali naman silang nag-ayos at tumayo, I was about to stand when he enter. So, that's the reason why he's here?
"Good Morning Sirs!" Bati ng mga ka team ko at yumuko. Tumingin sakin si Sir Cleo at bumati.
"Good Morning Miss Astucia." He said in a gentle way, dali dali akong tumayo at bumati pabalik.
"Good Morning Sirs, I'm sorry." Nakakahiya, ano ba kasing pinag gagagawa mo Clesha, nakita mo lang siya nawala ka.na naman sa katinuan.
Sir slightly smiled and nod.
"First of all, Good morning, I am here with our new investor, I would like to introduce to you Mr. Archimed Damien Madrigal " I know kahit hindi mo siya ipakilala saakin kilala ko siya, hindi lang kilala, kilalang kilala. Napangiti nalang ako ng mapait. Tinignan ko siya at nagtama ang aming mga paningin, bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko, una akong bumitaw sa titigan namin at yumuko nalamang, I can't take it. "The CEO of the Madrigal Entertainment." They all clap their hands including me.
Isa isa silang nagpakilala, and when it's my turn, pinagpapawisan ako ng malamig, sh*t! Ngumiti ako at nagpakilala.
"G-good Morning sir, I'm Cleshiarine Shermuel Astusia." Inilahad ko ang aking palad para sana makipag shake hands kaso tumalikod na siya, The F! kung yung iba ngingitian niya at makikipag kamay tapos saakin parang wala lang. Hindi na siya nagsalita, Nagpaalam na sila at aalis nang biglang tumigil si Arc at tumingin saakin.
"Ms. Astucia right?" Yes, does my name rings a bell to you? Nais kong itanong ngunit pinigilan ko ang sarili ko, kinakabahan ako na hindi ko alam, pagkatapos ay tumingin siya kay Sir. Cleo.
"Pardon Mr. Cleo but didn't you teach your employee that they should greet first their boss before you greet them back, not the other way around? I know it's no big deal but it's basic." Sabay tumingin saakin at ngumiti ng patuya. The nerve of this guy, alam ko naman na mali ako, pero ipahiya ba naman ako, he could have just talk to me in private. May sinabi si Mr. Cleo saakin bago siya umalis ngunit hindi ko ito naintindihan.
Is it my fault na hindi agad ako tumayo? Yes ofcourse Clesha, pinairal mo na naman kasi yang damdamin mo. Akala ko kung ano na ang sasabihin niya, umasa na naman ako. Huwag kasing assuming masasaktan ka lang.
"Hey, girl are you okay?" Tanong sakin ni Yuri, "Sabi ko naman kasi sayo gwapo, ayaw mo pang maniwala napatulala ka tuloy." She said jokingly pero di ako natawa kasi nasasaktan ako.
Ngumiti nalang ako ng tipid.
"Comfort Room lang ako." paalam ko at umalis na, not minding those stares they are throwing at me.
Pinipigilan kong mahulog ang luha ko hanggang sa makarating ako sa comfort room at doon ibinuhos ang kanina ko pa kinikimkim na luha. Masakit, sobrang sakit na makitang hindi ka maalala ng taong mahal mo, na hindi ka na nga malala ng isip niya, pati ba naman ng puso niya kinalimutan ka pa. I don't know what to do anymore, akala ko kaya ko na, na hindi na ako masasaktan, pero hindi pa pala.
Though I'm happy that he's alive. I'm happy that he is happy, hindi man saakin kundi sakanya masaya na ako, He is with the woman he truly deserve.
