"He's back." I said. I'm with my bestfriend. Tumingin lang siya saakin at waring nag iisip kung sino ang tinutukoy ko.
"W-wait, what? who?" Tanong niya, I just smiled and after that she already get who I'm pertaining to.
"Don't tell me it's Arc? Seriously? Sinasabi ko sayo huwag na huwag kang gagawa ng kagagahan. Bee---" pinutol ko na siya sa sasabihin niya.
"Amanda Choefel, alam ko na yan." Sabi ko nalang at ngumiti ng tipid just to assure her, wala narin naman siyang nagawa kundi ang titigan nalang ako.
I sip on my juice.
It's funny that The man I used to be with, The man who makes me happy, The man who makes me feel safe on his arms, that I'm the only one, that I'm his queen. The man I love. That in a blink of an eye the love and care he's giving me vanished, he himself disappear, at hindi ko alam kung maibabalik pa ba ang dati.
Ilang taon na ba? It's been four years since that incident happen, and I don't think that in that four long years I have moved on. I tried but, nothing happened.
He is always on my side, in difficulties, in happiness, sa lahat, never niya akong iniwan. Sa dinami rami ng mga pagsubok na pinag daanan namin lagi siyang nandiyan. Hindi siya bumitaw.
A part of me thinks that I should fight for him. A smile crept into my face at that thought.
If I didn't fight for him back then, now I will do everything I can just for him to remember me, and if it wouldn't work I will make him fall for me again, badly smitten with me, and suddenly I remember. He already have a girlfriend Clesha. How fool of you.
The hell I care right? Because I know for sure, He may forget me in his mind but I know deep inside him, in his heart he still loves me, he is just blinded by the thought that he doesn't remember me. I believe that the mind could forget but the heart will remember. Corny man isipin pero naniniwala ako.
"What are you thinking?" Tanong sakin ng bruhang kasama ko, umiling nalang ako. Nagkibit balikat nalang siya.
"By the way Clesh, Birthday pala ni Niel next week, sa Tagaytay ang venue, ano makakasama ka ba?" I almost forgot, oo nga pala.
"Yeah sure, buti nalang ipinaalala mo, but wait, would he be there too?" Ngumiti ako nang alanganin, Oo sinabi ko na I would win him back, pero hindi pa ako ready.
"Yes, at huwag mong sabihin na hindi ka pupunta dahil lang sasama rin siya, Magtatampo si Niel sa'yo for sure." She said it with a venom on her voice.
"Nope, just asking." I said using my blank face. What to do? baka pag di ako pumunta, malalagot ako sakanilang dalawa.
After a long silence. Tinignan ko siya, Sino ba ang ka text nito at sobrang busy sa pagtipa sa kaniyang phone. Well mabuti na rin yun at nang ma divert ang attention niya sakin.
"I gotta go bee, may work pa ako, basta yung sinabi ko ha." Ngumiti ako at inayos na rin ang gamit ko.
"Wait a minute, I'll just fix my things, sabay na tayo." Sabay na kaming lumabas, as we arrive at the parking lot we bid our goodbyes, at pumasok na sa kanya kanya naming sasakyan.
I look at the wall clock in our office, It's already six o'clock at hindi ko pa natatapos itong mga gagawin ko, I don't have a choice but to overtime.
It's been a week before I last saw him, wala namang kaso saakin yun, dahil nagkaroon ako ng time na mag isip, though napapaisip lang ako kung saan kaya siya nagpupunta, o saan siya namamalagi. Stop thinking Clesha makikita mo rin naman siya bukas, pangaral ko sa sarili ko. Yes, bukas na ang birthday ni Niel, at paniguradong nandoon siya, silang magkakaibigan. I'm just wondering kung isasama niya ba ang girlfriend niya, or kung girlfriend niya man. I feel a pang on my chest, cheer up Clesharine you can do it, parasaan pang Astucia ka kung mag g-give up ka kaagad at magpapatalo sa babaeng yun, and you are not yet sure kung sila na ba talaga. Just don't mind it, bukas mo nalang isipin, pag alo ko sa aking sarili. I'll just go back on thinking of what would I gift to Niel.
