The questions of life.

chapter 3: Life & Death

Ah. . .

Life and death and part of the circle of life you know we were born with life and grew for 9 or less months in your mothers whom to come out and live in this world full of expectations to sooner or later love it and accept it all or be the people to hate it and end it all.

Life and death are most amazing things but are the most amazing mysterys of all time like how were we all actually born and come from.

How did it all start. . .

And when we die where do we actually go after we die.

Is there such a thing of heavan, hell and god..  So many questions we have and we don't know the real answers.
Are those answers the real questions?

To be honest I'm not scared of death when I die I die I don't know when I will of how I will .. I don't know if its from natural causes, Unnatural causes or if I just straight up hate being alive and I take my own life. What ever it is and when ever it happens I'll be happy with it and I'll acctep where ever I go.

I've been depressed like really depressed and sick of living and sick of life I just want to lock myself out from every I've been like this for a long time and yes I did want to end my life and I tried to and obviously it fail because of the people that cared for me saved me and told me to stop and that I'm an amazing, kind and loving persin that they love and i felt bad so i tried to stop but sometimes i just get really bored with life and dead I just cut.

I don't know know why but I love giving myself pain. eh its a long story and who even cares.

Now a lot of people asked me this question have u ever wanted to kill yourself?

My answer is "yup and I tried and I failed"

And here's there next question do you regret not dying?

my answer is " Yeah sometimes " and j just leave it as that.

When your going threw something hard and you wanna end it all and u just wanna let someone you love to be the only one to know well mostly likely that person is going to tell every they know that knows you to to stop and you have a bunch of people messaging and calling you to stop what your and then you feel all this pressure for some reason and you stop because you felt bad ans stuff.

But there are others that don't give a ducks fuck about people so they just countinue to not care and end there life and then people are going to be all heart broken and stay your selfish and a whole bunch or bs and I think that Being like that is stupid because it your life and and you can do what you want with your life cause you live your life So do what you want.

Whatever it is want whatever you do just know that its ok and your not      alone.... Or maybe you are?