Loving him ( :

I wanna give your heart a break

 i remember this was the number one song that explained how u felt about love and what had happened to u. I also remember wishing u would see i wasn't like any of those fake girls that had broken your heart one too many times. I am different. i remember praying every night that u would just see that "you belonged with me" i was good for u, they were NOT. yet i took u a year to realize this. i get it you were a little slow but the girls u had been with that year were some of the biggest bullies in our school and by bullies i mean my bullies they hated me because i was real. that's when i became fake. it hurt so much to see u with them and have u not notice hurt more until that one day i noticed u were the one who was hurt. i saw it in your eyes, you were broken inside and u were trying to fill a hole in your heart with meaningless girls and affection and compliments. I was the only one who saw through your act, the only one who understood ur pain and ik that makes me sound a bit vain but its the truth and i made a promise to always be real with u and myself no matter what people thought and i was the only person who texted u and asked u about it like u had previously done for me.

me. hey 

u. whats up

me. nun much hbu

u. same

me. talk to me 

u. wym

me. i can see something is wrong with u

u. wym

me. the sparkle in ur eyes is gone

u. aw thats cute

me. im serious, when u smile the sparkle isnt there anymore what happened

u. im fine

me. that how ik ur not fine

u. wym

me. u said the two words that show ur not fine

u. which are

me. im fine

u. im okay.

me. nope, not buying it tell me about it im here u can trust me 

u. i gtg 

me. ok if u really have to.

u. see u tmrw

later on that night at 3 am i had a sc from u that said i am so f****d up. i replied and said same and drew a heart and u sent one back and we talked all morning. but the only problem was that the next day at school u avoided me after we had a deep conversation.  

Whats up with that???????????