My life story and saved by a doctor

My names Nikki I'm 13 years old and this is my story; when I was in grade 5 11 years old 10% of kids where my friend out of a 1000 kids in my old school  wouldn't pick on me but everyone else would except my friends  I started  to cut when I was in grade 5  I'm in grade 7, I've been cutting for 2 years but I've stopped  now but I have 2 new ones but its not my fault its the people who made me do its fault I used a Razer blade Scissors glass really anything I could find to cut with. I have over 55 scars just from cutting because I was fed up with life I've almost lost 4 friends to cutting but I did loose 1 Skyler  he was my best friend and Brittney I lost to a car I lost my sister to a kidnapper she got shot four time

in the stomach just because she wouldn't cooperate with the guy who kidnapped her she was terrified she kept screaming so he decided to put

a scarf   in her mouth. he could only hear " a weak little cheep" but back to my story I'm a weakling I'm never going to be strong because of the scar  and sugary (Not plastic sugary) lung,chest,ankle,stomach,kidney, ect  if I didn't make it through a sugary I would be dead  I wouldn't be here I would be in heaven  but I'm not dead I feel like I am but screw that I will never be dead even though I have a short life.