Because Of You

Chapter 7

Torian

Walking into Josh's apartment I immediately went to go check on my sister. I noticed the bruises on her face and I wanted to know where the fuck they came from and why they were even there. If this was Shawn's doing I was going to lose my cool because in no way should he ever be putting his hands on my sister. This day started off on a good note, but I didn't want it to end the way it was going. I for one was mad as fuck, not only was I mad but I was embarrassed that Josh had to witness the bullshit that happened back at my moms house. Him jumping in to save me was one thing but him beating the shit out of Shawn was another, I didn't want things to go that far but honestly I'm glad that it did because he deserved every hit. The only thing I didn't like was the fact that it was Josh who had to do it, it wasn't my first time being around Josh and him fighting but this time it bothered me, only because it was over my problems.

"Kai.." I called, sliding next to her, lifting her head and placing it in my lap. "You okay?"

She shook her head no, fresh tears were falling from her eyes, "She hit me Tori... mommy hit me." She cried harder as I rubbed her head softly.

That explained the bruises.

"What? Why?" I replied, my whole attitude changing.

"I don't know, when we got back she yelled at me. She called me all types of bitches and then she slapped me. She's never hit me before Tori." She paused looking up at me, her eyes bloodshot. "She said that it was our fault that her life is the way it is now. She blames us. I don't understand why she treats us like this, I just don't. What did we do?" My sister was breaking down and it hurt me to see her this way.

This is what I've always tried to keep her away from, shit like this and now it seemed like it didn't matter where we went, it still followed us.

I sighed and helped her sit up.

"Look Kai, none of this is our fault. We didn't ask to be here and we didn't ask to be treated this way. Mom has her own problems within and she can't blame us for that. She's always been this way and I doubt that she'll ever change." It was because of our mom, who planted these fucked up situations on us that I had to explain to my sister that we're not the problem in our mothers life, she was and it saddened me to even have to explain something like this to her in the first place.

I hated that woman with a passion, I hated her for putting us in these kinds of predicaments. I hated her for putting the money and attention of all kinds of different men before us, her own flesh and blood, her children. I still ask myself, why did she even have us if she wasn't going to love and nurture us like a mother should? Why did she hate us so fucking much? What did we do to deserve such a fucked up parent? I still have yet to find those answers and I lost hope long ago that I would find them. I could see in my sisters face that she was thinking that this truly was her fault and I didn't want her to blame herself for something she couldn't control.

Sometimes I wish our dad was still around to take away the pain but I guess my mother wasn't happy with us having that either.

I grabbed her face and turned her to towards me so that I was looking at her straight.

"Don't blame yourself for this Kai. You didn't do anything wrong, this is just the way life goes sometimes. The only thing for you to do is take the things it gives you and try to make it better, focus on things that make you happy. I'm always here and I'm not ever going to leave you. I will always protect you, know that and trust me when I say that I have your back no matter what." I reassured truthfully.

"Thanks sissy. You always know what to say to make me feel better." She admitted with a small laugh.

I laughed along, "That's what I'm here for sugar." Standing up, I grabbed her hand and pulled her up off the couch. "Now that the issue is out of our way, I think we should have a chill, fun night. Get your shoes on, I'm gonna go see if Josh will take us to pick up a few things."