When all your inhibitions and what if's comes to life, how will you face it? will you crumble and succumb in tears and despair or will you fight it and seek the light that was gone when the darkness loomed all over your spirit.
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January 26, 2015 (Monday)
A normal Monday it has been, I was again sitting in my room and lurking along the alleys of my confused life when a beep from my phone interrupted my reverie. It is from Marie.
Marie: Ethan, sorry na! He was part of my barkada in HS so he is with us and I left my phone for the rest room and he answered my phone. I'm sorry Ethan, I'm really sorry and I miss you.
The text message made me feel confused. Would I let her just bail out on this or I'll still be mad at her? I know I can't stay mad at her!
It was just her ex who answered my call and he warned me off! Just great! Why should I get mad, as if we are together, right! I don't have the fucking right! And that fucker has also no right; they have separated but are they really? Should I care! I'm just a really close friend for fuck sake! Oh! How could I stand her? Because this really close friend is just really pissed and hurt, oh who am kidding, I miss her.
Ethan: I'm not mad, I'm just not comfortable with this feeling, you with your ex, I mean who sane person goes out with his/her ex? And you didn't tell me you're out; I should have prepared myself or just avoided calling you that night! I'm just appalled with the recent events. Just that!
And her reply wasn't instant; I waited for five minutes but nothing. Maybe I gave her a lot of think about, well yeah, think about it baby. I mean, stick it into your throat.
So I went to have a shower first before going to the park and seek some of my freaking friends.
While walking beside the street going to the park, I saw Jude buying something from the food shack; I went up to him and gave him a wave.
"Judeee!" I shouted at him.
"Eroooo" He exclaimed!
"Stop calling me that. Asshole!"
"Haha, How's my least favorite person on the planet?"
"Still trying to be your least favorite person on the planet, you asshole! Hahaha"
He waved his middle finger at me and I stick out my tongue at him. He is such an asshole, he always texting me shits like, have I gotten laid? Or telling me stories of his freaking icky sex life! Or asking me to be his wingman! Oh god, 'til when will I be going to be peoples' sidekick! We bought something to eat and sat on an obscure part of the shack and eat.
"So have you gotten laid this couple of days, coz' I haven't seen you in a while and you, you haven't texted me or called me, seems weird of you" I asked laughing.
"Nah, my prick needs rest once in a while" he said while chuckling.
"Are you sick? You aren't yourself by saying that!" I teased.
