Life is so meaningless. Why are we even here? I looked through my phone realising that we're all meaningless. All I do is use the same 3 apps everyday, pretty much ignoring everybody around me. I can't be bothered to study because I see no future. There is no future for me. I fell into the system. I'm no longer myself. I have been modeled into a robot, just another brick in the wall. I am nothing.
For those who feel the same, this book is for you.
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Song of the chapter: Halfway Right by Linkin Park
R.i.p Chester Bennington
We may not have saved you but you saved millions. Thank you.
Lyrics that are important in this chapter:
I scream at myself when there's nobody else to fight
I don't lose, I don't win, if I'm wrong, then I'm halfway right
I know what I want, but it feels like I'm paralyzed
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Why am I alive? Out of all the others, why me? I don't want to be here. I never should have been born. I am a mistake. I'm fucking worthless. Why am I alive?
I hear my alarm ringing but I refuse to move. I don't want to deal with people today.
After a while I begrudgingly get out of bed and got ready for the hell hole people like to call "School".
I sit in math, quiet and still. I try to listen but I don't understand. Am I dumb? Nothing makes sense and thus, nothing goes in. I doodle in my book and sing in my head. That's my safe space. Art is my escape and it's the one thing I get. Art can say so many different things while saying nothing at all. Everybody's point of view can be different and there's no right or wrong. The only thing is that in other classes, I don't do sketches. I draw little triangles connected to each other or a bunch of straight lines. I'm still trying to figure out what it means but it's automatic.
The bell rings and I haven't learned a single thing in the past hour. I take my time to pack my things.
Next lesson is gym; we're playing basketball with the guys. I actually love basketball, as long as we're playing with girls. The guys in my gym class are fucking terrible. They pretty much play with themselves so all I can do is stand there and be useless. I'm meaningless and useless. Great!
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Hi guys, thank you so much for reading my first chapter of this book which I think will be the one I update most because I feel like it has the most significance to my life as I do go through some of the things you'll see characters in my book go through. If you want something more light hearted, go check out my other book Undercover Model
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The first few chapters the title will be the name of the characters pov. After that I'll figure out if I would continue that or not.
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