im hurting inside.
so freakin bad.
ive never told anyone.
i dont want them to hurt too.
i can only put on a fake smile.
and act like im fine.
thats the story of my life.
i think about disapearing so that their lives would be better.
but then i realized how bad that would hurt them.
and i cant do that to them.
my mom needs a daughter who is caring and gentle and patient.
not me.
my friends need someone to lean on and be happy with.
not me.
my brothers and sisters need a older sister who is a listener and can care for them.
not me.
everyone in this world could do fine if i wasnt here.
so when i go to bed.
before i fall asleep.
i pray to anything magical.and wish that they could live happily.
if only i could disapear.
but its okay.
because im trying.
its just too bad that thats all ive got.
