"*sniffle*
Well I just messed my whole life up.
All of my bandmates are furious with me. I got yelled at and scolded by everyone. Even Jungkook scolded me. Yoongi hyung was so upset that his face was red.
Even manager-nim was there and he was the most angry. He threatened that if I pulled another stunt like that, I would be suffering severe consequences.
I understand that I'm affecting the whole group with my actions and that I feel really shitty for it.
It's just that whenever I feel that someone is trying to attack Hoseok emotionally or physically I lose myself. I get overcome by anger and just get mad at the world. I can't think straight when that happens.
It seems as if all I can think about is Hoseok nowadays. Maybe this is what it means to be crazy in love. If so, I don't like it one bit.
Ugh. I now see why idols aren't allowed to date each other. It becomes very problematic for everyone. Hoseok and I have a relationship that is the very definition of problematic.
How come everyone else is dating and not going through this?? Am I really an alien? Is this why everything goes wrong for me? If I am an alien, how the hell do I become human because I can't keep dealing with this crap all the time.
It's driving me crazy!
What makes it worse is that Hoseok still won't talk to me. I keep apologizing to him but he ignores me and starts conversation with someone else. We're never even alone in the same room anymore. It's like he's avoiding me.
I hate being like this.
I really regret saying what I did to him. I really am happy that I fell in love with him. He's the best person that you could be with because he's so amazing and perfect and fantastic and just everything I've always wanted.
I don't think I'd be satisfied with anyone else. I mean, I have a Jung Hoseok for crying out loud. Not trying to boast or anything but I'm an extremely lucky guy. He's so beautiful inside and out.
I have to start treating him better.
He's a sunshine and deserves the whole world.
If you happen to find this recorder:
Please return it to me.
This stuff is very confidential
V's entry...
End."
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Fanfiction~~SEQUEL TO DON'T TELL~~ "I wish that I could just tell them" A story in which V and J-hope wish to tell their fans about their relationship with one another but they don't know how.
