Falling For my Best Friend || Grayson

twelve

Riley's POV

the ride home is short and silent. it's 9:42 when i get out of the car. i open the door and smile when i see my dad in front of the tv, laying on the couch. he's half asleep on the couch and his eyes fly open when he hears me.

"hey Ri!" he says as he rubs his eyes.

"hi dad. why don't you go to bed? you look tired" i say smiling and putting my keys on the hook by the door.

he nods and turns the tv off. "i could say the same to you" he says as pats my shoulder and i smile. he was right. i was tired. "night dad, i love you" i say quietly.

"love you too Ri" he says heading upstairs. i sigh and grab a water and make my way up to my room. i set my water down and drop my bag on my bed. i pull out my phone and see grayson texted me but i don't respond. i go to Trent's contact and press facetime.

his face appears on the screen and i adjust my phone as i smile. my smile quickly fades when i realize he isn't smiling. he looks really upset.

what have i done.

"Trent..." i say, and my voice cracks. i'm already fighting back tears.

"don't Riley. i'll let you explain but once you're done explaining you're answering my questions" he says, clenching his jaw.

i sigh and begin to spill. "it all started when i went to get a homecoming dress with the guys since the girls didn't want to go, but then i figured out that they ditched me. that's when i got mad and we left, deciding to throw a party at Cameron's. several shots and games of beer pong later..." i say pausing and he closes his eyes and squeezes his lips together.

"you fucked him, didn't you Riley..." he says as i feel a tear roll down my face and i quickly wipe it away.

"no! nothing happened he just kissed me! we were drunk!" i say as several tears roll down my face. i see a tear slide down his cheek and i wish i was there to wipe it away. to kiss him. to comfort him.

"clearly" he says and i look at myself in the camera and notice i have several hickeys and i sigh. "you're going to homecoming with him, aren't you..." he asks. i feel my lip quiver and i nod slowly, looking down.

"i can't believe this shit..." he whispers. "Riley i think we need t-" he says before i cut him off.

"stop Trent! we can figure this out! please!" i say as i begin to sob. "please" i whimper in between gasps for air. he shakes his head and starts to cry harder. i've never seen him like this. it's killing me. "i love you Trent" i say between sobs.

"i love you too Riley" he says before he hangs up.

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it's been a good thirty minutes and i'm still sobbing in my bed. i know the face paint i had earlier was probably smudged as well as my makeup. i didn't care.

it's crazy how things can go bad so quickly. i felt like i had been with him forever. i felt stupid for thinking that i wouldn't fuck this up. that we would get married and start a family. i knew we were drifting apart, but i didn't expect this to happen.

why do i fuck everything up?

another hour passes and i sit up, glancing at myself in the mirror. my face was red and puffy. there was blue face paint smudged across my face as well as tear stains. i plug my headphones in and climb out of my window onto the roof. i lay down and stare up at the sky. i was listening to Andrew Lambrou's cover of "Secret Love Song" and i stop crying.

i wanna hold you in the street.

i wanna kiss you on the dance floor.

i wish that it could be like that.

why can't it be like that?

the sky was dark, and the moon was full. thousands of stars twinkled and shined. the cold october breeze collides with my body as i stare up into the sky. it seems so unreal. my music tunes out all of the sound that may be coming from around the neighborhood.

how was i stuck on earth? it's just a little blue speck in our galaxy. somehow i'm stuck here. stuck here so that i can mess everything up. it just doesn't make any since.

my hands are shoved into the pocket of my hoodie as i continue to stare at the moon. i had stopped crying a while ago. it felt like i couldn't cry anymore. i jump when i hear my window slide open. "dad...?" i say looking over at my window.

i see Grayson climb outside onto the roof and i exhale, looking back at the sky. "you should really start locking your front door, Ri" he says quietly. i lower my volume a little so i can hear him. i feel my heart starting to race again. he lays down on the roof beside me and wraps his arms around me. i press my face into his chest as he holds me tight and begin to cry again. "i always mess these things up" i say as i sob into his chest.

he hushes me and runs his hand through my hair. "you're okay Riley. everything's okay. i'm here now" he whispers.

i continue to cry as i focus on the lyrics of the song.

but we know this, we got a love that is homeless.

i wanna hold you in the street.

i wanna kiss you on the dance floor.

i wish that it could be like that.

why can't we be like that?

Grayson's POV

i hate seeing her like this. she's hurt. it's all my fault. it had nothing to do with her, and she's blaming herself.

she lays in my arms, sobbing for a while, until i convince her to go back inside. she was shaking and the cold air wasn't helping this. i helped her stand up and get to the window, where she climbed back into her room. i followed behind her.

she made her way over to her vanity and grabbed a wipe, and began to remove her makeup and face paint that had been smeared all over her face. when she was done she climbed back into her bed and i pulled the covers up over her body. i sat down on the edge of her bed and watched her as her eyes slowly shut.

i flipped the switch on her lamp and the room went dark. the only light was from the moon shining down and seeping in from her window. i stood up and kissed her forehead and she didn't move. i grab my keys and head towards her door to go home.

"Grayson...?" she said quietly and i flinch a little.

"yeah Ri?" i ask and face her in the dark.

"c-...can you stay here for tonight...?" she asks and i put my keys back in the pocket of my shorts. she moves over a little and i lay down beside her and she rolls over to face me.

"thank you, Grayson" she says, but i stay silent. i just observe her face. i stare into her beautiful eyes that were illuminating in the moonlight. she smiles a little and rolls back over. i gently pull her into my body and wrap my arm around her waist.

Riley's POV

"thank you, Grayson", i say. he doesn't say anything. he's just watching me. but i'm watching him too. his eyes could make you forget about the world. forget about the hatred and violence. his mouth could make you smile for an eternity, but make your knees go weak. i smile a little and roll over, as he wraps his arm around my waist.

i'm so lucky to have Grayson as my best friend.

kind of a sad part. hope you enjoyed it though :). thoughts???