Falling For my Best Friend || Grayson

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Riley's POV

i stand in the rain, sobbing for a few minutes. i walk back to his house and throw his skateboard in my car and get in, driving home. 

i get home within a few minutes and sneak into the house. i didn't want my dad to see me like this. i ran upstairs and locked the door. i drop the skateboard in my room and pull out my phone. i'm still crying at this point but i call Trent.

"hey Ri!" he says and i sniffle. "what's wrong!?" 

"i-i can't do this anymore Trent... i'm so sorry..." i say.

"what!? Riley please don't..."

"i'm hurting everyone and i can't do this anymore. i love you but i just can't"

"Riley stop!" he shouts into the phone and i wipe my tears.

"goodbye Trent" i say, hanging up. i drop my phone onto my bed and shove my face into my pillow and sob. 

it took me this long to realize i have feelings for him and i've already ruined all of  it. 

Grayson's POV

when i get back into the house, Ethan looks back and sees i'm soaked. 

"dude, what happened?" 

"i'm not in the mood Ethan" i spit and slam the door to my room behind me. i collapse onto my bed and squeeze my fists. i'm breathing fast, and i can't control it. i hear a knock on my door and Ethan's voice follows. 

"Gray... what happened..." he says, opening the door. he stands by me but i don't look at him. 

"shut the door" i mumble and hear the door close. he sits on the edge of my bed and i sit up and put my head in my hands.

"i told her-" i say before stopping myself. "i told her i love her"

"why is that a bad thing?"

"she's back with Trent. she doesn't want me. she doesn't love me. she loves him, and there's nothing i can do to stop it". we sit in silence for a while. "i'm done with her. i need to clear my head"

"Tyler's throwing a party tonight if you really want to clear your head..." he says and i look up.

"call the guys. we're going out"

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Riley's POV

it's been hours. i'm still upset. i've been squeezing the bear Grayson gave me when he asked me to homecoming for hours. i've been crying for hours. my phone keeps buzzing, but i know it's just Trent. i jump when i hear a knock at my door and wipe my tears.

"want anything for dinner Ri?" my dad says, not opening the door.

"no thanks dad. i'm not hungry" i say and sniff.

my phone buzzes again and i pick it up. this time it's not Trent.

Ethan: Ri, he needs you

Ethan: please hurry

Ethan: Riley, i'm serious. please

the last text he sends me is an address. i sit up and wipe my face. i throw on a new set of clothes since mine are still damp from the rain and run downstairs. "i'll be back soon dad"

"where are you going?"

"i have to help Grayson"

"what do you mean help him? is he okay?" he asks and i don't say anything.

"i don't know anymore"

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when i get to the address, it's very familiar. there's cars parked up the street and people making out it the yard. that's when it hits me. this is where we partied. this is what got me into Grayson's bed that night i got wasted. that night he took care of me. the night he was responsible and i wasn't. 

i'm not crying anymore at this point. i was scared. i walk up the stairs to the house and walk inside. it's dark and loud. i push through the crowd of hot, sweaty bodies. i stop when i see Ethan and the guys talking near the front. i look around and continue to push my way through the crowd until i'm joined with the guys. 

"Riley!" Ethan yells.

"what's wrong!? where is he!?" i shout.

he grabs my hand and pulls me near the bar, where i see Grayson with his tongue down some girls throat. i stop walking and i start shaking. "E-Ethan... i-" i say before i start crying again. 

he's not even my boyfriend but it hurts. it hurts to see this.

"Riley it's just going to keep getting worse" Ethan says behind me and i wipe the tear that's rolling down my cheek. i walk over to Grayson and pull him off of her and he turns to face me. 

"god, Riley. what the fuck do you want. i told you to go away" he shouts and i just stare at him. he's drunk. 

"come on" i say grabbing his hand, trying to make him leave with me. he pulls his hand away from me and my heart races even more. he notices i'm crying and almost stops. 

"leave me alone Riley" he says before grabbing the girls hand and taking her back into a room. i feel my body giving out, and i fall onto my knees. Ethan picks me back up and i squeeze his shirt in my fists. "this wasn't supposed to happen Ethan" i whisper as i cry into his chest.

he puts me in the passenger seat of my car and looks at me. "don't leave. i'll be back" he says, before heading back inside. a few minutes later he comes outside with Grayson. Grayson doesn't look happy and i hear him yell, "i don't want to see her anymore Ethan! just fuck off!"

Ethan shoves him in my back seat and shuts the door. he gets in the drivers seat and reaches his hand out. i give him the keys and he drives me home.

 "don't do anything dumb. just keep an eye on him, please"

"go home already Riley" Grayson mumbles from the back seat. i get out and walk inside, letting out a long sigh. i run upstairs, getting into bed and stare at the ceiling. i can't stop picturing it. his tongue down her throat. her hands running through his hair. him leading her to another room. it just hurts.

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i only got about an hour and a half of sleep last night. i wake up when my alarm clock goes off at 6:15. it's monday. i don't want to go to school, but i have to. i throw on my make up and toss a shirt and sweats on. i slide my feet into my converse and grab my backpack. i look outside expecting to see Grayson's car. it's not there. there was no honk, signalling me to hurry up. there was no one.

i park my car when i get to school and grab my stuff. it's weird to be back in my usual parking spot. i used to park here all the time until Grayson started taking me. i look across the parking lot and see his car. he's here. here we go...

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everything feels weird. it's lunch, and i'm sitting with the girls again. i don't talk to them much as used to. i just i poke my lunch with my fork. i jump when Ethan taps on my shoulder and whispers in my ear, "he passed out last night. he's still really upset". i turn around in my seat and bite my lip, trying to think. i feel the girls staring at me, but i don't care. 

"i'll try to talk to him later" i say and he nods. i watch him walk over and sit with the guys. they all look at him, except Grayson. Ethan sits down, revealing Grayson keeping his eye contact with me. we keep it for a while but i turn around and return to poking my lunch.

alright i gotta take a break because i have a project due at midnight that i haven't started and it's almost 6 pm so gotta blast. i might update when i'm done. hope you enjoyed :) thoughts??