HELL NO!!! I'm Never Gonna Get Married To You!

Chapter 14

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ANDY:

I turned around to feel Austin's body besides me, curling myself much closer but I crash landed on the floor. My butt hurt badly. What the hell is this?!

I jolted myself, looking around and found myself on the floor, in my room and in the same dress..... My Engagement dress! Why the hell I'm wearing this? Didn't I changed it last night and then Austin came to me and confessed that he loved me and then the date... pool... diner... proposing.... What the hell happened?!

I rubbed my butt and stood up. I looked at the mirror and stared shocked at my self. I was still in the dress... and my hair was still tied hanging loose in curls which were kinda rough now and my head felt heavy. A few of the pins were pinching in my skin and it felt like they're gonna pass through my skull. The make-up was still there but marks of dry tears that flowed from the darkly shaded eyes till the chin were prominent. Had I been crying?

Yeah! I was crying when I slept. But I had wakened up in the middle of the night and changed and washed my face and there was Austin and I had slapped him and he told me he loved me and he took me on a date down to the pool.

Where did all that go?

Why am I still I'm my dress?

I stared at myself confused and shocked.

I walked with slow steps to the balcony and it was locked. How can it be locked when we went through it?

I ran my hand through my packed hair, trying to rip it off because it was making my head heavy and I couldn't think! Why is everything so still and same?! Why doesn't it make any sense?

I felt the coldness of the ring on my finger. I stared at it trying to remember if anytime in the middle of the night Austin had carried me up to my room....

But why the hell would I still be in my engagement dress?!

My stomach growled, pulling me back to reality. I was hungry! Really very hungry... but I ate last night with Austin...

Or I didn't?

But I did... his words were still ringing in my ears... 'I'm sorry for being a jerk to you all this time and I'm sorry I couldn't tell you how I felt sooner.'

The touch of his soft lips was still lingering on mine. I brought my finger, touching my lips but they were dry...

He said he liked me... loved me...

Didn't he?

Had I dreamt it all?

Was it really a dream!?

It can't be! I shocked gasp passed my lips. NO! It can't be a dream! It was the best thing ever! No....

None of it was real? None of it...

My head started spinning and tears started welding up in my eyes. Why'd I have to dream that!?

My heart ached again... was I this miserable that I didn't deserve happiness? Can I only dream of being happy? Can I only be with Austin in my dream?

My legs got wobbly and I fell on the floor. I wanted to scream! Scream for everything to rewind back and happen in real!

Austin said he loved me....

Damn it! I'm so messed up. Nothing happened last night. Nothing.

There was no point to cry. Nothing left to cry about...

I got up and dragged myself to the bathroom. I washed my face and filled the tub with cold water.

All I needed was to relax. I took off my clothes and drowned myself in the water and rested my head on the edge. I closed my eyes and tried to forget it all.