Sophie: maybe later, i have tons of tests tomorrow.
Dan: so? You can study at my place while we're cuddling!!!
Sophie: dan...
Dan: sophie...
Sophie: im not coming over
Dan: fine :( ill get charlie to come over then
Sophie: have fun
Dan: 🙄
Dan: haha look @ us we're having more fun than youuuuu
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Sophie: that's nice but im trying to study so Stop Blowing My Phone Up
Dan: ur mean
Sophie: ik
I pace around my room, trying my best to clear my head enough to actually focus on studying, but it's not working. No matter what i do, i cant seem to be able to give my brain a break, even if it's just for 5 minutes.
In a way, im mad at myself for being so rude to dan, but i wasnt lying when i said that i was trying to study, and i definitely wasn't lying about all of the huge tests. Theyre so huge that if i dont pass all of them, it could really interfere with my grades and i cant have that because, unlike some people, im actually trying to get into a good college.
Im also jealous of dan. He doesnt have to worry about tests, and he hasnt had to for the past 14 years.
Yes, dan is 31 and im 17, turning 18 next week. Dan dropped out of high school right before senior year started, and im on the verge of doing so myself, but im not as lucky as him. If i dont get into a good college, i could face working at a sucky McDonald's for the rest of my life, and if rather not take that chance.
If im being completely honest, ive always had a crush on dan. Ive known him since i was 12 and he was 25. His mom and my mom met online and became good friends, and my mom got dan to tutor me in math since i wasnt doing very well in the subject at that time. Honestly, we didnt do much math at all, we just sat and talked about his band, which i was fascinated with at the time. We grew to be pretty good friends, though it may have seemed weird because, well, he was in his 20's and i wasnt even a teenager yet. Nevertheless, we still talked daily and the days we actually did math helped me become much better.
I turn on some music in hopes of it clearing my head, but it only makes me think even more. So, i decide on taking a short nap, hoping that when ill finally be ready to study.
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A/N: hi!!! Sorry for the insanely short chapter, i tried turning my auto caps on and I absolutely hate it so im just going to make everything lowercase from here on out. Xx
