Bus Stop | ✓

5

She's a bit chirpy this day.

When I arrived today, she was already there. She was smiling and Oh Dear God that's my morning completed.

Does she even know what those smiles do to me?

I just feel this intensive tugging in my stomach, it's weird, it's annoying. Like I'm hungry but at the same time I don't wanna eat anything because it all taste bland in my mouth.

What the hell am I saying?

She's in the middle of her story about that thing that happened in their trip in Japan. I forgot what made her tell it but I sure as hell don't care just as long as I hear her voice anything's fine with me.

But I have to do this...

I have to tell her.

No, wait, that could be a bad idea.

I don't know, should I tell her?

Or just kill myself? Argh, I don't know.

"Hey, Tzuyu," It's now or never, Mingyu. Get your shit together, man.

"Yeah?" She smiled. She freaking smiled and what can I do about those dimples? I can't stop staring at it.

"I know, we're not really, you know, like, friends- friends,"

"What? It's funny I've always thought of you as one, too bad you don't see me that way," Fucking hell, her smiles turned to a pout what do I do? 911, help?

"No, no, I mean, yeah I consider you as a friend but we never really talked outside this bus stop and it's really just a shame and I'd really like it if we, you know, talk somewhere else?"

"Like, in school? Sure, but I barely even see you there, it's funny," She giggled.

What, is she trying to kill me here? With all those beautiful harmonic, laughs? Oh dear God.

"No, like, after the talent show, we could maybe grab some coffee and chat over muffins, I don't know?"

"Oh, you mean, like..." I know it, I know what she's gonna say but she's hesitating. Fucking hell Mingyu why did you had to open your goddamn mouth? Fuck. "Like, on a date?"

"Yeah," Fuck! No turning back. Alright houston we have a problem, no time to abort mission! Fuck it, boys, let's just do this!

"Oh my God, I don't know what to say,"

"Me either,"

"I'm sorry I thought you knew..."

"Knew what?"

"I don't know how to say this,"

"Just, breathe," I tried to reciprocate a smile.

"I'm kinda seeing someone," WHAT?! She's what?! How did that- When did- WHAT?!

"You are?" Foolishly, I asked.

"Yeah, I'm truly surprised you didn't know. Because I thought, Jungkook hangs out with you guys a lot-"

"Jungkook? As in, Jeon Jungkook? My friend, Jungkook? Is he who you're seeing?"

"Well, yeah. He never told you? We've been going out for like two weeks now."

I stood there, looking at her. Contemplating on my life choices. Who am I? Where am I? What am I doing?

Why oh why in the world would Jungkook ask her out? WHY? When he knew that she's all I ever talk about, why did he ask her out? WHY?

Goddamn I feel so fucking betrayed.

"Are you okay-"

"-Yeah! I'm fine! I'm the happiest I've ever been, never been better! I'm happy for you guys, Congrats!" I said as I unconsciously just started walking away.

"Hey, the bus is almost near, where are you going?"

"Uhm, I feel like I wanna walk today,"

"Are you sure? I mean, you're gonna be late, is that okay?"

"Yeah! I just have to run back home to get something real quick. I'll see you around then!" I ran fast just to get away from all her questions.

But why the fuck would Jungkook ask her out? He never made any intentions before. He never even mentioned her before!

AND WHY DO I ACT LIKE IT'S MY BUSINESS? It's not, dammit, they can date whomever they like. Fuck it.

I'm so outta here.