If You Could Tell ♥ | AdamTina | [ON HOLD]

【 ℑmportant to me 】

“Adam-?” – I started, I tried my best not to show that I was already crying but nothing came out. My voice was too shaky, and my tears were rolling down my cheek in unbelievable speed. He was cheating on me! With his contestant! “Adam, wha-“

He cut me off:

“Chris honey, I know what you’re thinking this is. That’s not it”-he said pulling the girl away from himself, while I saw the girl smiling. He cam to me and tried to hug me:

“Go away!”-I yelled. I didn’t mean it. I was just too confused, too shocked of seeing this, and I didn’t even realize what I was saying. I just know I was yelling , cursing, hitting him with my little fists and crying a the same time. Anyways, we was still calm, and was trying to calm me down as well:

“Christy, babe. Listen to me, my love. This is not what you’re thinking. Let’s just go to my trailer, I’m gonna explain you everything sw-“

I guess I was behaving so bad, but in that moment I didn’t care.

“You, you fucking Levine! You’re such a liar, how could I believe you”-I don’t even know what was making me say these words; I knew he loved me, but…

“Christina will you listen to me, please?”

I attacked him once again:

“Go back! I hate you! Go, liar! Screw you! “ – I was shouting so loudly! My heart now was broken into billions of pieces.

“Christy, listen, I swear-“

Once again, I cut him off:

“I don’t need your fucking false oaths” I thought this was the worst thing in my life, but the worse was still in front of me …

“Will you at last shut up little b-“ – This was Adam shouting at me now, as he walked away from me. This was the worst. This was the most unexpected. This was the most hurtful…Right now I knew I was passing away. I knew I wasn’t going to live happy again. I knew I wasn’t going to live…

“Think whatever you want. I don’t care about it! Don’t you trust me? Well I don’t need it! I don’t need you! I’m breaking up with you!”

I’m breaking up with you! I’m breaking up with you! I’m breaking up with you? 

This isn’t possible. This is a dream-a nightmare…shortly I will wake up! I’m sure!

I even started squizing my hands to make me believe this was a nightmare but I knew this wasn’t.

I couldn’t sleep any linger…all I thought of was how sweet Adam was acting first and then all of a sudden he changes. All I thought of was about my bithchy manner. All I thought of was about what made Adam do such things to me. All I thought of about were sooo many things but none of them had even one simple answer…

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3 weeks later…

Everything was awful…fake smile…forced laugh…

It was too much for me. I couldn’t take it...

I don’t know what Adam thought of this….

Was he in the same condition too?

Was he heartbroken too?

I avoided him, very every moment I saw him. I was afraid to talk to him. I was afraid of what he might say, what he might do. We both were avoiding each other. So much. I was just afraid he lost his feeling for me, because in my case every day I felt that I had more love for him…what should I do? I didn’t know….