Hey mommy look, i'm in love with a psychopath, aren't you proud?

Its just a joke to you

Shaun and I got back to the house 20 minutes later it was bout 6:30 a.m. I went upstairs to my room and just as I guessed Adam was there but he was sleeping on the floor. I climbed into bed and fell asleep. 

        I woke up to Adam shaking me, I looked over to my alarm clock *11:30 A.M.* "What do you want." I mumbled into my pillow. "Well first I just wanted to get you up cause knowing you, you would sleep all day" he was saying this like it was a bad thing, maybe I wanted to I thought kind of jokingly to myself. "And second I was just gonna let you know that I have to leave, but I'll probably call you later tonight." He was sitting next to me on the bed and he leaned down to kiss me goodbye. "Im sorry Ash." he murmured "Yeah, well as I recall that's what you always say but every time I turn around you do it to me again." After I said this he left, I'm actually surprised he didn't make an argument about it and start screaming at me like before. 

        I grabbed my phone and texted Leah, shes the only one who really knows what Adam has done to me in the past, after all she is my best friend why should I hide this from her?

Me:Hey 

Leah: Hey babes, whats up?

Me: Adam......he did it again...im sorry

Leah: What the hell??? This is what the third god damn time? And why are you sorry he is the one that should be sorry, you need to tell Shaun

Me: NONONONONO!! im not telling him...I just dont know what to do Lee

Leah: Ash, do you love him?

Me: yeah, I mean I use to, but I doubt that its real love though im only 17

Leah: Just talk to him.....

And that was that. I mean she had a point and I do need to talk to him about this, im just scared. 

        Later that night after dinner Adam called. Even though I was scared I eventually brought it up. He said he was sorry but I didn't believe him, thats all he said, just like last time and the time before. I just dont think I will be able to trust him, or anyone for the matter I've just been screwed over too many times. I just want to get my life straight.

"Hey....I think we need to take a break...I just need to figure things out.." I said this quietly, almost a whisper, but he heard me. "Ok Ash, I understand, I'll text you later, I love you." I paused but managed to say those 3 words back then I hung up.  'I honestly thought i would be harder to do that, thank god' i thought to myself. Just then I heard tapping on my window.....