I Don't Wanna Live Forever

RainbowClan: A Mission of Love

~Marquis~

Wasn't it enough to break up with him?

I don't deserve his love

I don't deserve anyone's love

Marquis' POV

"Sorry about that guys." Shadowdream meowed casually when he entered camp. "Some crazy queen thought that I was another tom that knocked her up. She still thinks I'm the same tom, but some cats lead her away to talk her down."

"That's good to hear." Bridgette accepted the obvious lie and brushed her pelt against his. I haven't known her long, but geez. That she-cat is dumber than a pile of rocks.

The two moons that I've spent in this Clan were nice, but I'm sure they could've been a lot better if I wasn't so full of grief and hurt. I was still looking at Shadowdream and Bridgette when Icedapple ran up to me, jumping up and down.

"I'm taking Softpaw on a hunting patrol, wanna come?" Icedapple purred, leaning against me. Roxanne's kits had become apprentices, and Butterflystar thought Icedapple was more than ready to take on her first apprentice. On a less happier note, Icedapple made it very obvious that she's really into me.

I didn't want to get attached to any cat in case Gunner found me again, and I wasn't over Fireflight. In other words, being with Icedapple would be a terrible idea. But I didn't have the heart to tell her that. Instead, I'd just have to push her away as gently as possible.

"Um, I think I'm good. I already went on a hunting patrol this morning." I responded as casually as possible.

"Suit yourself! But we should go hunting soon, we make a great pair....hunting pair I mean." Icedapple winked before she bounced away with her mellow apprentice following her.

I saw one of the she-cat warriors coming out of the medicine cat's den with Nobleclaw and Blacksmith looking at her. As soon as she wasn't within earshot of the two of them, Nobleclaw looked at our medicine cat with wide and fearful eyes.

"I can't be a father to more kits!" Nobleclaw whimpered. "Mintbreeze doesn't deserve a lousy tom like me. I avoided my kits in AngelClan whenever I had to, and what if I left RainbowClan?"

"Nobleclaw, you know better than to leave these kits this time." Blacksmith whispered. "Let's talk about it in my den, we don't need cats gossiping to your mate about your insecurities."

I frowned, thinking that Nobleclaw was lucky to have another chance with a she-cat and family that he loves. Meanwhile, my future with Fireflight was dead. Nobleclaw had the perfect life made for him, and he was refusing it.

A perfect life that I would sell my soul for.

I marched all the way to the medicine cat's den, not caring whether this was my business or not.

"Nobleclaw, you have the perfect chance to start a family that wasn't conceived from a manipulating snake-heart." I explained. "And AngelClan is in the same territory as us now! Don't you think that StarClan's way of saying that you still have a chance to make amends for abandoning your second litter? So many warriors lose their loved ones at a moment's notice, so shouldn't you love Mintsneeze as long as time will allow?"

"Mintbreeze." Nobleclaw rolled his eyes. "I know Vixenstar didn't like you around her son, but I think you might not be so bad after all. I heard that my youngest son's kits were born, so maybe I'll go there right now to talk to them."