To the One Who Didn't Work Out

To Him

TO THE ONE WHO DIDN'T WORK OUT,

I don't know where to start...I don't know where to put the letters, the words, the pauses and the message I want to impart on you.

But first, do you still remember me? If yes, remember me as a stranger, If not, then good, congratulations, because if I were to be ask the same question, I will answer definitely No.

Every seconds that we were together, God knows, I've cherished it the most, they were the happiest moments of my life. I know I might sound desperate, and I know that I am a fool, still writing this letter for you. But I have no other manner to say my last words to you. I want you to learn by heart the three words that I want to say, Sorry and Thank you.

Yes, I am really sorry, for what happened. I know I am the one to be blamed. I'm so naive, self-centered, and FOOLISH!I also hate myself for what I've done, but I have no choice, I am also a victim of misfortune and the destiny's wrecking game. We once go against the flow and the current, believing we can chase forever, we even fight for each other, but now look at us, our hearts still pounding but with diverse rhythms. I am sorry for letting you go, but this is the best way to mend your heart easily, I am just thinking about your own sake.

That day that our love story ended, it was the most life-wrecking part of my life, up till now every night I burst into tears and your image inside my head is irrevocable, it is like a beautiful nightmare, a part of me wants to forget, but the other side wants it to be kept. I also want to express my gratitude to you, you're my refuge and strength, you're my downfall, my weakness and strength, you're once my knight in shining armor and I'm your damsel in distress way back then...

Thank you for proving your worth, thank you for fighting for me and holding still. Thank you for making my life even better. I have no regrets meeting and loving you, I am privileged to be loved by someone like you. Thank you for lifting me out of the darkness, thank you for understanding me, thank you for your presence when I needed you the most. I wish I can turn back the time, but I know nothing lasts forever, I've acknowledged the fact that we are just merely faded lovers, nothing more, nothing less.

I've seen this on movies, I've read this on various books, I even once a witness of this real life phenomena, but I realized something, this is no joke, Love is completely life changing and magical, but it is not indeed a fairytale- full of happy ever after, prince charming, princess and some sort of magical fictional stuffs.

We were bounded in the reality, there will always be melancholic times and testing of faith, it is full of tragedy and mind boggling situations, full of twists and turns. You deserve someone better, the one that will never let you down, the one that will prove that love is everlasting, the one that is right for you, the one who will not let go and love you still through tight spots, sadly I'm not that ONE, I've been mentioning.

Life is indeed ironic and full of clichés, full of pointless dramas, thank you for letting me feel that I was  your Juliet and your my Romeo, but just like them, the story of us ended tragically, but as for them they have faced it ,holding still, how about us? We let go. We are on the wrong situation, mistaken point in time...

I hope in our second lives we can be together and we can prove forever. Thank you for being there in the last chapters of my life. Sorry for not telling you' I love you' personally, but yes, I am still madly in love with you. I will never forget you, I will reminisce and treasure our moments together. I promise to you that I will personally say to Him that you deserve someone better and I assure you she will come, just wait patiently and love her, just like the unconditional love you've showered me. No need to thank me, because when you're happy, I'm happy too.

Unhappily, maybe you can read this letter when I'm already gone.Goodbye.

Sincerely yours,