To the One Who Didn't Work Out

To Her

It was an exhausting day, too much work to do, too many papers to pass...

Honestly?,my life was never been the same, without you. You were similar to the air I breathe, the resemblance of the sun in my world, the star in my vast universe...There's always been a missing piece in the puzzle,with your absence- I feel incomplete.

Yet after all, you left me hanging-alone in the misery, questioning myself what's wrong with me?what's wrong with us?...

Guess what!I don't have any single piece of idea,I don't know what to do!Enlighten me.Please,Please come back to me now,please...please...

I immediately crumple the paper and throw it away.

I'ts too hard,its too **mn hard!I'ts killing me softly,How can I?...Talk to a girl who just vanished and without saying,even  a single word, leave me?

I want to call her or even text her but there's a force stopping me,I even tried to stalk her on her social media accounts but,I can't get any single piece of information about her.

That is why I tried to make a draft, of a letter to be mailed and send to her,but I can't,I don't know to what to say,I completely don't know what to do.I'm torn.I'm nothing but a piece of s**t.

As I was slouching to the couch,I hear the  door bell ring.I  stand up weary and walk towards the door.

I slowly open the door,half-closed.

"Goodmorning,here's a mail for you!"

I was curious about the postman's statement.No one knows where I reside nor know me,for years.

I received the envelope and close the door.

I left the mail somewhere and went upstairs,it is not a thing to be bothered about,I badly need to rest now.

***
I stare at the ceiling,pushing myself to sleep ,but I can't.

The pain is killing me.Days have passed,weeks and even months.

I've tried to erase YOU and our memories in my mind,but it keeps pulling me backward.

I'm hopeless,I've dated several girls each night,diverted my gaze into alcohol,found myself lying into unfamiliar places...but then  it is still,YOU...

No one can replace.

Please leave me alone.
No,please come back to me please...

***
Days...weeks...have passed slowly I'm learning to ease the pain.

I've dated several girls and met someone.Guess,I can forget you,totally now.
As I was,searching for my car keys,a piece of paper,falls down from the cabinet.
I was trying to reach it,but my phone suddenly ring.

*CALLER ID RESTRICTED*

Without saying a thing, I ignored the phone call.Maybe it's a prank.I'ts none of my business anyway.

I picked the paper and put it inside my pocket,maybe it's an important file.

After work,I was shocked about missed calls,30+ from the same number.

And here it goes again.

I was doubtful,but to be sure I answer it.

"Hello?"
"Who's this"I replied.

The voice from the other line is ...familiar.
I can't recall but.

"She's gone."
"What?!Who?"

A moment of silence.
The voice.
She's her...

I hurriedly get back to my car and as I was getting my keys,the letter falls of,I don't know why but I opened it.

TO THE ONE WHO DIDN'T WORK OUT,

I don't know where to start...I don't know where to put the letters, the words, the pauses and the message I want to impart on you.

But first, do you still remember me? If yes, remember me as a stranger, If not, then good, congratulations, because if I were to be ask the same question, I will answer definitely No...

The handwriting.
The message.
She's...

Without wasting any second,I've managed to reached my destination,the sender,texted me a location and it was absurd,a hospital.

Running,my heart is racing.
Tears we're falling unto my face.
I saw her.
As pure as white.
As innocent as before.
She was smiling.

I was too happy.I run towards her and cuddle her.I was holding her face and I can sense she's also crying.

"Why?"
"Sorry for what I've done,always remember that I love you."

As I was about to reply,I saw a familiar woman weeping.Along with the hospital personnel and the other people, they are carrying a patient.A lady...

Whom I recognized the most.She's wearing a white dress.Too Pale that resembles a paper.

But I'm certain.

A moment ago,I was with her.

My knees were trembling,my mouth froze,how can it be?

Why did you leave me,again?

Why!

Everything went black...

the way it was before.

But now she's gone and I'm resentful for what I've done.