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Hello.

If you're wondering where i've been...

I haven't been updating because I have been on a writers block for at least 6 months. Trust me, it sucks! I know! I still have no ideas and it's just been going slowly for me.

I have also been depressed also, there was just some certain things that really drained my mood and I was sleeping more. I've lost my way and I don't know what road to take anymore.

It doesn't help that I have people that keeps looking down on me. Please just give me a chance to shine bright.

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It's the main reason why I stopped writing, Im worried about what people think of me. I know I shouldn't but I can't help it. I had thoughts of sadness last night. I was alone. Alone in my dark bedroom where any that can just be thrown in.

Sometimes i want to get up and pack my bags. Take my belongings and just leave. I want to travel to find my own path, whatever path i take. I am always getting delayed.

Don't get me wrong, I want to have people around me because I love socialising but there's times where I want to be alone.

I wish people would understand that I'm not always happy, I pull a happy face because I don't want you to see that I'm breaking massively inside. Call me an attention seeker all you want but the internet is the only place where i would get real with myself.

I was standing on the bridge looking down into the water and it was so high. I imagined myself falling, I was so scared that i went into a panic attack. I've always wondered why people are so coward to drop themselves over the bridge but then i realised because no
one is there to fix your pain. Only, you can. Struggles and tears fall but it's the process.

Don't worry about me, I am just having a bad day.

my heart also goes out to the people, who lost their homes by the Hurricane Irma. You're in my prayers.

Question; Who on earth names this hurricanes?

ILL BE PUBLISHING AROUND THE 20TH SEP