Hey guyss!! I wanna start writing a new book.. I'm thinking joshler but idk. I'm not sure what I want it to be about or anything really. Uhmm... PLEASE message me if you have any ideas, at all. And there is no wrong any wrong answer. Also,, today was suicide prevention day, and also the day that fadedroses by indietyler was first posted,, and also my boyfriend's birthday. And I want to make something clear to you guys, I am pansexual and am not ashamed of it. Sometimes I break my own heart by falling for straight girls, which I can't help. And I am about to tell you guys something very personal about me.
So not to long ago was my birthday. I had a huge party, and a ton of people were there. After the party, I had a few people spend the night, which were one of my best friends of 5 years, Maddie. My good friends Aleysha and Aleah, which are sisters. And I also had my very best friend there, and her name is Caitlyn. Something crazy happened at that sleepover though. We played truth or dare, like any teenager would do at a sleepover. But something happened. I have always thought that I might have feelings for Caitlyn. And in that night, we got dared to kiss. And we did. And I felt something. And she didn't. I told all of my other friends, that were there. And Caitlyn could tell something was up. So she asked what was going on, so my friend, Aleysha, helped me out, by telling her she had feelings for her. As soon as Caitlyn had heard that she immediately jumped up and hugged Aleysha. When I noticed her reaction I literally said this outloud.
"Fuck it... I'm the one that likes you."
So all she did was leave Aleysha and come sit beside me. No hug. Nothing.
But there is something else that happened before that, and this is kinda weird.
Caitlyn wanted to learn how to make out, so Aleysha taught her... in the closet, literally. But what I found out not that long ago, is we think she likes Aleysha, and also, Aleysha told me that when they were making out, Aleysha tried to stop and Caitlyn said, "No. Keep going." And started making out with her again, but not only that, but while she was doing that, she was not only making out with her, but she was touching Aleysha, on not only her ass, but her vagina too. Believe Caitlyn, has told us she is almost full on lesbian. But, I'm still upset. Cause she might like Aleysha. Also I just moved on from a boy that I really liked. His name was Michael and he was so amazing. Until, he just out of nowhere "stopped loving me". What the hell? How is that even possible?
Anyways, enough of my sad love life. Like I said, it is also suicide prevention day. I am not very good with words about these kind of things, and I can't really say anything to make you feel better, cause I have and still am going through stuff. I have been in a mental hospital, for trying to kill myself. I still go to therapy every week, and I still take pills every night. I just want you to know that you are not the only one. I'm here if you EVER need to talk. I know the words people tell you usually don't help, but it is worth a shot. I don't know any of you on a personal level, but I want you to know me better so let me start with this.
Hi! My name is annelise( I would tell you my full name, but like I said, I don't know you on a personal level😂),and I am 13 years old. I live in Georgia. I am pansexual, and am not completely out of the closet, but am not ashamed to tell people. I want to be a makeup artist, even though I get made fun of for wearing too(too or to?) much makeup. Although I get made fun of for it, I still try my hardest to succeed. In everything.
Message me if you want to know more about me. But anyways, don't ever give up.
And fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuckkkkkk!! Fadedroses.
I think that's about it. Sorry for the sappy rant.
Love you guys!!! Stay ¤hydrated¤~~~
Ba bye.
