Well, who would have thought huh? I would see you in this sense of love. I've always loved you, caring for you because all I wanted to see is my bestfriend happy. Somehow, that compassion turned into this kind of love.
What I loved about seeing you under this light was that you didn't change yourself completely. You didn't turn shy or overly showering with me with sweet confessions of love. You stayed the same, well, almost, in a good way.
The times where you would suddenly hand me small pieces of candy or the random motivational quotes you wrote on my sticky notes.
Small, meaningful gestures. That was what you planted in your mind to do for me. Not really a fan of being extravagant, it had always been sweet and simple with you.
It sent me to wonder, how in the world I managed to unlock a door to see this side of you. Indeed, you were the caring bestfriend, who would do end up making the deed into a teasing matter. But now, being the person who, in a sense, owns your heart, you took care of me with care and gentle words.
I remember that one night, you took me out for midnight snacking at the convenient store. As we brought two bags full of snacks, we sat on a bench at the park nearby. We started to talk about our feelings. It felt surreal and at the same time, like a dream.
To my memory, we haven't really had a heart to heart talk. We've always just told stories and how we feel every now and then, the sadness of watching a heartbreaking movie, the enthusiastic feels of knowing our favourite artists are coming out with a new. It's always been the normal day to day topics.
But getting to know how you feel from the raw confessions you poured straight from your heart, I felt the sincereness emitting from you. I saw the side of you that you've kept to yourself. Like how I admired your morning face, the face that showed all the flaws and charming features of you.
That was what I felt when we had the talk. Pure, genuine, unmasked emotions. And on that night, we first kissed.
Thank you for entrusting me with your heart and taking care of my fragile heart. I've never been more in love with the way your small gestures made me feel all fluttery inside. It is not a lie for me to say, genuinely, you were my first love.
